I wonder why...

I wonder why I still bother... I can rationalize it with myself and I'm clear and cool with my rationalization of the issue. I wonder why I still feel upset about it. I wonder if it is the person in question. Liking and/or disliking someone is often irrational. Of all the traits I dislike, being dependent is the worst of the lot. Being on an emotional roller-coaster because of another person is not something I should ever do nor am I keen to do so. It's just seems so tiring. Social distancing is something I should do. The less contact the better. But it's so hard to distance myself when the other person's so sweet sometimes. Don't be too nice to me please...