Parcels thru the mail!

I got a parcel from N0g0al nee-chan today. A lot a lot of candies, chocolates and a UCLA t-shirt that now smells of the candies he packed it with. =) Heh. I’m not really sure why he sent the parcel. The postage must have cost him. =(

But I’m pretty happy. Getting parcels thru the mail is truly a wonderful feeling... I don’t get them very often but when I do, I’m really happy. Thanks ng-neechan! *hugz*

MOE Briefing

Went for the briefing at MOE today. Even though J warned me bout being late, I was still one of the stragglers... coming in at 135 out of 150 in total. Woah…the wait was horrendous. I forgot to bring anything to read. Hungry and bored... the worst combination... T_T lucky I have celine, val and gang to keep me company. =)

Heh. It seems that everyone and their mothers are going to teach. Met Terr para para toh there. Haha... it has been ages since I last seen that bugger. =P I knew he was bonded! But I just didn’t expect it to be with MOE. Even charles is going to teach! Shocku! Correction: I think Charles is already teaching at a school, teaching PE and English. *Double Shocku*

But I think they’ll gonna be very popular with the girls. =_= well maybe charles will be popular with the guys lah. But terr definitely will be popular among the girls. Sigh... hard to believe it’s been 4 years since I knew these guys. Terr even said he still has the video we shot for the stupid JS project in our first semester. Projects were fun back then. T_T

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I have this horrible headache… and a stiff neck. I think it’s stress-related. Why do I always do this to myself? =_=

Life should be simple.

my eyes are like this...=_=

It’s bout 4 plus am in the morning and I’m still sitting in front of the computer, willing my downloads to go faster. T_T Just got back 1 hour ago… went to watch Swing Girls with the AK people, then we just sat and ate and talk and laugh from after the movie till 3plus. Vape and Para gave me a belated birthday treat at Tao’s today. Was totally not expecting it, but thanks guys!

Swing Girls is a really hilarious movie! The guy who directed “Waterboys” is also the director for “Swing Girls” I highly recommend it! It’s about a group of girls (and a boy) who wanted to form a jazz band. Big band jazz to be precise. The music’s real cool and the movie really has its moments. Ra says she rates movies by their prices…haha….using the same scale in my opinion, $8.50 is the price for the movie! Even if you watched it on a weekend, you won’t regret it. But I shouldn’t hyped it up too much! I guess why we enjoyed the show so much was coz a group of people in high school uniforms suddenly went up to the front of the cinema to dance when the “Swing Girls” was performing. It was so funny, they just stood up and went up to the front to dance. One couple even went to the back of the cinema coz there were no more space in front. Heh. At first we thought they were spontaneous Japanese high school kids out on a lark. But they turned out to be Cos-players. Haha…but still, the atmosphere in the cinema was great!

Oh, one more thing…

My mood’s not the greatest this past week and I’m not feeling very good recently also. Please pardon my mood swings. I know I shouldn’t take it out on you, but sometimes I just can’t help it. If I appeared surly or snapped at you or suddenly just clammed up without reason, then I’m really sorry. If there’s a reason behind it, then perhaps you should reflect upon it. =_= Perhaps I really should take a step back and look at matters from a larger perspective. It’ll really clear up my mind and perhaps my mood will take a turn for the better! =)

my new bookshelf!

Dot built me a bookshelf. Not bad for a first timer ya. I remember my eyes went @_@ when she told me she bought the wood to build a bookshelf for me. =P Well...I wasn't really expecting alot... haha...but this really exceeds my expectations. I'm honestly touched though I DON'T view the transportation and cleaning process with anticipation. =_=

Hmmm... I don't think it's gonna fit all my books and mangas... perhaps it's time to clear up my room a little. =P

Friends?

Sometimes I really wonder why people became friends. Is it because of common interests? Or are we attracted to certain qualities in others? At some point in time, you’ll get to notice the other person’s flaws and idiosyncrasies. There’s sure to be disagreements. What happens then? Perhaps it’s how you deal with all these that determine whether a friendship deepens or wither away. When is the transitional point when strangers became acquaintances and then to friends? When is the point when you look at someone and say, he/she is your friend, instead of your classmate or schoolmate? I’m still not very sure on that point. That’s why I guess I’m a little leery about people I’ve not known for a long time. There are exceptions of course. I may look like it. but I’m just not really a people’s person I guess.

Fucking BT

I spent the whole fucking day trying to download H2 episode 3 via BT. The WHOLE FUCKING DAY!!! Right now what is the percentage at? A freaking 91%! It’s had been 91% since 5 in the afternoon and now it’s almost 10.30pm already. T_T Sandrock is right. It’s a vicious cycle. BT hates me and I hate BT. It’s a never-ending cycle of hate. =_= I think I can forget about wanting to watch the episode by tonight. Fuck it!

Oh, bout what I said in the earlier post about skinning the perpetuators if it was my younger brother whom they tortured and killed, I take that back. That little bugger can fight his own battles from now on. The two fucking torrents he’s running are part of the reason my stupid H2 BT is at 0kb/s now. I so want to SMACK him! That idiot!

Oooh…it’s at 92% now! At this rate, I’ll be able to watch my episode sometime before noon tomorrow…now why can’t I feel happy about it? Grrrrrrr……

Grrrr......

Was out with J today and we started talking bout various issues. Euthanasia, child molesters, child murderers, serial murderers integrating back into society etc. The moral dilemmas that come up in some of these cases. J mentioned that in the states, people who committed sex crimes against kids will actually be identified by the government even after they served their sentence, so called paid their dues to society. There’ll be a huge sign outside their houses stating, “a child molester lives here”, pamphlets will be given out to neighbors citing his identity and his crimes etc. On first thought, that does sound rather horrid doesn’t it? Since that guy had already paid his dues to society, he had served his punishment. Don’t he deserve a chance to start afresh? Yeah…these were my views in the beginning too. But if that person preyed on your kids, I’m pretty sure your thinking will take a 180 degree turn. It’s always difficult when matters turn personal. Some of these ex-convicts, they just can’t help themselves. What attracted them to children in the first place? Some kind of sick urging? Would prison cure that? I’m not so sure myself… would you want to expose your kids or younger siblings to such a character?

There’s this new movie coming out soon called “The Woodsman”, starring Kevin Bacon. It’s about a pedophile who returns to his hometown after 12 years in prison and attempts to start a new life. I think this movie’s going to be interesting to say the least. Kevin Bacon’s one of my all-time favorites too. =P

Besides the cases of the pedophiles, there’s the child murderers to consider. Can we condone them their crimes merely because they are kids? What a worthless excuse! The case of Mary Bell came up. She tortured and killed 2 young boys, I think aged 3 and 4 respectively when she was 10. Is this scary or what? In 2003, the courts granted her lifelong anonymity. Is this fucked up or what? Apparently, the courts wanted to protect the killer and her teenage daughter from vigilantes. I say let them have at her. What’s worse is that she sold her story for money!!!! Can you all believe that? I can’t take that she snuffed out two young lives just for fun and now she’s living a good life with her daughter with the money she made from selling her story bout how and why she killed those boys... or rather toddlers.

“Brian was found covered with grass and purple weeds. He had been strangled.
Nearby, a pair of broken scissors lay in the grass. There were puncture marks on
his thighs, and his genitals had been partially skinned. Clumps of his hair were
cut away.”

Isn't it disgusting? She doesn't even know the kid... he's just a kid from one of the houses in the neighbourhood. WTF!

It’s the same with the case of the 2 bastards who tortured and killed the small boy at some railway track some years ago. James Bulger I believe his name was. Cute kid who died because of some vicious punkasses… The courts granted them anonymity too. Spent millions of dollars in fact trying to hide their identity and creating new identities for them each time the press found them out. Grrrrrrrr…..those kids are pure evil. They ought to have been snuffed out! =_= man…some of the things I read about the case still gives me the shivers! And I’m filled with this rage, this unquenchable rage that made me understand why the vigilantes do the things they do. I shudder to imagine if it was my brother who was taken out, tortured and murdered just for the fun of it. Hell! I’ll skin the bastards who did it!

I’ll have to admit that I’m a very judgmental person. Don’t give me all that crap about forgiveness cause I don’t buy it. I believe you are fundamentally responsible for your actions. I believe you should PAY for what you do. No ifs, no buts, no excuses, no fucking bullshit bout how she’s only a child!

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Discovered a new place today! It’s at far east plaza 5th floor. A quaint little place called Wasabi Tei. Recommended to us by the Sunny people. Haha… I guess they know all the good places within far east. It’s their territory after all. Anyways, back to Wasabi Tei, it’s pretty authentic in my opinion. The ambience, the environment, even completed by the stereotypical temperamental Japanese chef! Though I think he’s Chinese…hmmm…he looks Japanese though. =P

The food’s nice and the price is cheap as well. My only grouse with the place is that it’s really too small…..and the hygiene level is not all that high. =P Oh! One more thing! I was pleasantly surprised when I found out that they don’t have the 5% GST, 10% service charge that most places had. =) That’s in their favour!

Went shopping with J after dinner…it was a good trip!~ hehe….spent over a hundred bucks though. But it was money well spent! =)

Perhaps I’m really an impulse buyer. Thoroughly a victim of the “I want it and I want it now!” syndrome.

The waiting's over...

I got the offer from MOE. But the problem is, I’m not sure if I’ll be going to NIE straight or teaching at a school first. Aiyah… but the pay is good leh. And I can start planning for my year end trip abroad. =P

Yay!

Byebye...

so sad...the picture is slightly blurred.

we took this pic with Takeuchi Sensei before he left for Japan. T_T

T_T

I just finished my historiography paper. But I’m not happy coz essentially, it’s a piece of crap. I started at 3 and I finished at 6. The quality is shit! T_T I still got to work on a presentation for Dr D’s module. Fucking irritating………

And I’m sick…down with flu. Worst thing about it is that I can’t taste my food now. When I eat chocolate, all I can taste is how sweet it is. Now all you chocolate lovers out there know that chocolates are more than just sweet ya? If I want sweet, I’d have gone to eat sugar instead. =_=

And I have no money left.

My life is sad.

T_T

Bogged down

Been thinking a lot about my future prospects recently too. Comparing the pros and cons of being in the civil service, ie. MOE, to working in the private sector. I fear I’ve been a product of the system for too long. I feel unsettled if my future’s not accounted for. Being in MOE would be the most stable path to take. A lot of my history classmates will also be at NIE! That’s a good thing I guess. It’ll be almost like school. And I’ll most probably take the offer if they offer it to me.
Note: I haven’t actually gotten the offer yet. I’m just assuming that I get it. If I get it, I’ll be spared the anxieties and apprehension of searching for a job in the private sector.

But the private sector has its own advantages too. The nature of the work, the opportunities, the experiences, the pay… and unless I plan to stay a teacher for life, I guess I can’t escape the anxieties and apprehension that most everyone have to go through. Will i be able to give up the relatively high pay at MOE to start all over again in the private sect0r? I honestly don't know. Oh well, if MOE rejected me, I guess I’ll take a chance and try out the JET program in December. If they accepted me, I’ll have to try out for it 4 years down the road. =P

I feel like taking a trip. Getting away from the never-ending drudgery of schoolwork. But alas, it’s all wistful thinking. Can’t afford the time nor have the money to do anything bout the trip. J suggested that we go Taiwan. Think that’s a rather nice place to visit, since I haven’t been there before. Oh well, maybe in the May/June holidays I guess.... =)