Weird conversation

Heh. Met up with kitty and fad again after a damn long time. Didn't have a chance to catch up much though.... too many people at Geylang. 

Anyways, the main reason for the blog post is to illustrate how weird kitty still is... he hasn't change much I guess. =P

T_T

MSN

12:46

hahahhahaa

12:46

my friend is gonna to help me!

12:47

i dun need a kitty to help anymore

12:47

=P

Faizal:

MSN

12:47

no wonder...

12:47

-_-

12:47

i feel unwanted.

T_T

MSN

12:47

wahahahahhaahahahaa

12:47

what happened to your construction worker?

12:47

=P

Faizal:

MSN

12:47

nebermind... i go geylang again.. now lorongs 12 and above...

12:47

sure feel wanted =<

T_T

MSN

12:47

kekekekeke

Faizal:

MSN

12:48

what construction worker -_-

12:48

i don't want to bring up my past.

T_T

MSN

12:48

your pain plus pleasure construction worker

Faizal:

MSN

12:48

not good for future relationships.

T_T

MSN

12:48

hahahahhaa

Faizal:

MSN

12:48

wakaka...

12:48

and you better not save these messages.

12:48

or you.

12:48

and your iphone

12:48

and your lv bags...

12:48

DIE.

T_T

MSN

12:49

i'll post em on my blog NOW!~

That's just how he is... hasn't changed over the years... still weird! hahahhahahahahaa....

And on the 4th day, God created Dinosaurs...

Went out with the AK peeps for dinner and movie. While waiting for the movie to start, a religious discussion occurred, and the above nonsense was the highlight !

Bernard 3:16

"On the 4th day, God created Dinosaurs and other assorted creatures. The other assorted creatures survived but the poor dinos didn't survive to the 5th day."

=_= What.The.Hell! 

Hahahahahaa... it's super hilarious! According to my dear friend who was defending his faith against us heretics, "day" in bible was merely a metaphor and that god created dinosaurs. That's the reason why we found dinosaur fossils! 

Another classic -

Bernard 3:17

"The fossils of the cavemen were merely the remains of deformed humans. We did not evolve from apes. The scientists hid all the remains of the 'normal' humans... it's a conspiracy!"

I've never laughed so hard for so long! 

Bernard 3:18

"The location in which he was found is not indicative of his religion"

The above was in response to J's retort that the first man was found in Sumatra and therefore could be a muslim! 

Gigz is such a good sport! He doesn't get angry and defensive when we asked difficult questions (i.e. attack) his religion. He deflects it with humour. While I'm still not convinced, I'm impressed with the way he tried to answer the questions posed, even though some of his answers are FULL OF SHIT. Hahaha... and he KNOWS it!

It's the weekend again! This time, its the weekend before school starts again. T_T I need to treasure every single minute! The drugery will begin anew. Can't. Believe. It. 

Mad people in school on a Sat!!

L came for a visit and we got bored waiting for the bhai… so we took her camera and started snapping away!!

There’s more… but frankly speaking… those are scary… haha…

More pictures!

Hahaha…. we’re class 4e9! 

It’s always sweet when ex-students come and visit. Especially my top student! =)

Me and the tall girl

Boss looks cute with the bunny ears!

The coolest department in school.

My kids

My ex-students came back today! Not all of them, but most of them. Was truly happy to see them! I think they have a special place in my heart. My first batch of silly kids. Didn’t take pictures of all of them coz my camera wasn’t with me and I was busy with the performance… but I really love love love the ones I managed to take with them!

Super sweet girls who made my day by giving me my first teachers’ day present! =)

One of my “darlings” who came to school and after a lot of nonsense comments, didn’t even wish me HAPPY TEACHERS’ DAY!!!

 

 

 

 

 

 

With my darling YJ. She’s always cheerful and bubbly.

 

Silly zul who is still so absurbly cheerful. Haha… and not to forget…

The unforgetable magneto… he’s just adorable lah. I’d seen him grow from a small round ball into a big… only slightly round ball… He’s really one of my favs.

Then here’s some of my current kids. Equally cute.

It's the end of the term!!

It's the celebration tomorrow. Strangely, I am not really excited bout tomorrow. Sure I'm happy bout it. But only because it signify the end of a term and the start of a whole week without lessons and kids. My form class is rather sweet but I'm looking forward to seeing my ex kids again. If they come back that is. I'm hopeful but not 100% certain. =_= 

The coming week will be filled with endless preparation, extra lessons and over-due markings. Hopefully it'll also be filled with days of rolling around doing nothing, watching endless dvds and meeting up with dear dear buddies. =)

Financial planning

Was supremely bored today and was chatting with PK on msn. He ended up being my financial advisor! It was quite funny actually but in spite of all the name-calling and insults we directed at each other, he did manage to give some enlightening advise on my financial situation. 

And so, I'm to save 40% of my income every month. No more internet purchases for me till the end of september and more importantly, no more LV bags. 

Yes father, I've seen the errors of my ways and I'll change... or at the very least, I'll try. =P

It's a calling... of which I lack

Disjointed rant ahead.

Nowadays, I can totally understand why people said that it is a calling. People who do not have it will not last long. I can feel it now. The feeling of being stretched (not in a good way) thin and my own inadequacies in my profession. I used to laugh and take things in my stride but I find that increasingly hard to do. I don't want the kids to suffer because of my inadequacies but it's so hard to find the time for them. I especially find it frustrating when I don't have the time for extra lessons with them. What's more contradictory is that I don't want to give up my life for them.

If the kids are good, I really don't mind giving up part of my weekend for them. Like my sec 4s, they're fantastic, therefore, I don't really mind if they need more of my time. But looking at the sec 3s I feel drained. I'm not even comparing them to my previous classes anymore. I still feel drained. I hate being a form teacher. All the forms to collect, the problematic kids to handle, the complaints from other teachers, their lack of motivation, their lack of responsibility. It's all killing me. I want to teach, not be an administrator. If I got to be an administrator, then I'd rather be a full-time adminstrator, not a part time teacher on top of all the adminstrative work I got to do. It's really ridiculous.

Sometimes I just want to stone the day away. Don't feel like doing anything at all. Just heck it all to hell and let them handle themselves for a day or two. But the backlog of work is worse than before. So that's not a good idea.

That being said, I don't hate the kids. I just don't like their attitude. It seriously made me wonder what their parents have been teaching them at home. Sometimes they are adorable. Other times, they're like little monsters. I feel like inflicting pain on someone right now.... in fact, anyone will do.

God help the next person who provokes me. =_=

Just a little dribble...coz I'm bored...

Have a little bit of time before S comes to pick me up from my place, and I'm bored. So I thought I'd reflect a little on stuff that I've seen and thought about these past few months. Might not be new or anything but I've realised that people tend to view things differently at different stages of life. 

I was at e-hub just the other day and I saw this group of teenagers behaving rather badly in public. I've seen kids behaving badly before and I've seen my share of good and sensible kids. Was just thinking to myself that if any of the kids were MY kids, I'd feel so ashamed and sad. At that point in time, I've realised that I'd joined the "aunties" category. But I can't help it! Maybe I won't have kids after all. The chances of them ending up like those people will be there and I don't think I can stand it. 

On another totally unrelated point, I was just talking to my dad. Totally random chat about his business, my friends, his friends etc etc. Ya know... just a random pointless chat to pass the time. But it got me thinking about the kind of friends I had and still have and the kind of person I want to aspire to be and the kind that I don't want to become. Am not a very nice person by nature. Funny thing is, I don't really aspire to be nicer than what I am. I don't have the burning need to try to be a better person then what I am now. However, I do want to be more of my own person, to stick to my own opinions and have confidence that while my views are not 100% right, they ARE my views and therefore worth defending. That's not to say I'll think that my views are always right but I think I'll try not to change my views to suit what my friends feel. I've seen it happening first hand on some people and I feel sad for that person. How do I put it... when you have to change your opinions or your view on things to suit another person's point of view, no matter how much you like the other person, I feel that it's kinda sad. That eagerness to please and the fear that you've incurred the 'disapproval' of the other person. That just smacks of insecurity. No matter how important that other person really is to you, you shouldn't let it progress to that stage. It's just sad. 

And once, a friend told me that the reason why people feel so strongly against a certain kind of characteristics is because they have the potential to behave that way or are already displaying that kind of characteristics. I find that super scary. If I do behave in that manner, do give me a smack on the back of the head to wake me up. =_=

Since i have some time to spare...

Well, recently, I've decided something that I thought I'd never do. I applied for my masters in NIE. Is the masters being offered at NIE credible? Honestly I don't have much of an idea. I know that it's not the smartest thing to do... applying for masters when I'm not even sure if I'd want to stay in this line. Taking up the course would mean that the next 3-4 years of my life is fixed and that being said, I'd have to continue with what I'm doing now. And while I don't hate it, it's not the my favourite thing in the world either. 

But I can't take the monotony anymore. I feel that everyday I'm facing the same bloody things. O'levels are just not mentally challenging for me. After all, I did take mine a decade ago, granted, things were different back then. But I can't keep swimming in this small pond. I feel the need to stretch myself mentally. I feel dumbed down in work by the routine lifestyle. 

Truth be told, I missed being a student. =_=

My precious

Over and done with! By far the most expensive purchase I've made in my life for myself! But oh so pretty. =)

Uh oh... no more holidays

And so, June has come to an end. Nothing concrete's been done so far but I'd had some great holidays over the last week. After the torturous first two weeks of the holidays... I'd say I deserve it!

8th to 10th June was the fantastic KL trip with the lovely kiddies and wonderful crazy bunch of people. Even though we had to go traipsing through rain-forests, rice mill and palm oil factory, the company made it all better. =)

Right after that was the much anticipated Taiwan trip with the AK peeps. Hilarious bunch of people. They're definitely good travelling companions! Well... not everyone all the time but damn close to 90% of the time. So on hindsight, both J and me agree that it was a great trip! Except that it rained almost all the time when we were there. *sigh*

There's not much pictures uploaded because my connection sucks and the blogger picture uploader is giving me grief. It sort of reminded me of the vicious cycle of relations I had with BT. I hate BT and BT hates me. Haha...

Anyways, first week of school is over and I still owe my head piles of work! Time to be more serious in my work if I still want my PB next year!

Holidays!! (and extra lessons...and camps and more camps and sch trips...)

Oh well, we ought to be positive! Just like the comments I wrote for the kids... even though I KNOW that they are not 100% accurate, but they're a projection of what I WISH they would be like. So yeah! We got to be positive bout the hols! There might be other stuff hogging it up but in the end, hopefully, it'll still be a period of R&R that every single serf of the dark towers NEED. Work attachment? I'll see you in hell before I'll give up my holidays to sign up for that

=_=

Let's see what's going on in June

1. Sec 1 (2 days 1 night camp in school)
2. Sec 2 (3 days 2 nights camp out of civilisation)
3. In-focus (5th and 6th June)
4. Extra lessons for sec 3 (5th and 6th June)
5. KL school trip (8th to 10th June)
6. IT innovation day
7. Meetings and other rubbish
8. And finally! The long-awaited Taipei trip! =) (11th to 16th June)
9. Maybe ATC on the 17th if they're really short on man-power. T_T

Ok, other than the above activities, June is pretty free. =_=

Personality Tests

L passed me a link to a personality test and I went and did it. Apparently, I'm an ESTP. The results.... hmmm.... pretty amazing I have to say... below are some of my personal favourites 

• ESTPs have a strong flair for drama and style. They're fast-moving, fast-talking people who have an appreciation for the finer things in life. They may be gamblers or spendthrifts. (This one is pretty self-explanatory)

• The ESTP often has trouble in school, especially higher education which moves into realms where theory is more important. The ESTP gets bored with classes in which they feel they gain no useful material which can be used to get things done. The ESTP may be brilliantly intelligent, but school will be a difficult chore for them. (Hmmm... is that why I felt like an EM3 student in my honours year? Wahahaha)
  

• They live in the here-and-now, and place little importance on introspection or theory. (Perhaps this would explain the bank account... or the lack of which)

So true...

From: glen@substance.abuse.blackdown.org 
Subject: Some rules kids won't learn in school. 
To: 0xdeadbeef@substance.abuse.blackdown.org 
Date: Fri, 06 Mar 1998 13:22:52 -0500 

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Forwarded-by: Daniel Rogers                     

Some rules kids won't learn in school                         

Text By Charles J. Sykes                     

Printed in San Diego Union Tribune                             

September 19, 1996  

Unfortunately, there are some things that children should be learning in school, 

but don't. Not all of them have to do with academics. As a modest back-to-school 

offering, here are some basic rules that may not have found their way into the 

standard curriculum.  

Rule No. 1: Life is not fair. Get used to it. The average teen-ager uses the phrase, 

"It's not fair" 8.6 times a day. You got it from your parents, who said it so often 

you decided they must be the most idealistic generation ever. When they started 

hearing it from their own kids, they realized Rule No. 1.  

Rule No. 2: The real world won't care as much about your self-esteem as much as your 

school does. It'll expect you to accomplish something before you feel good about 

yourself. This may come as a shock. Usually, when inflated self-esteem meets reality, 

kids complain it's not fair. (See Rule No. 1)  

Rule No. 3: Sorry, you won't make $40,000 a year right out of high school. And you 

won't be a vice president or have a car phone either. You may even have to wear a 

uniform that doesn't have a Gap label.  

Rule No. 4: If you think your teacher is tough, wait 'til you get a boss. He doesn't 

have tenure, so he tends to be a bit edgier. When you screw up, he's not going to 

ask you how you feel about it.  

Rule No. 5: Flipping burgers is not beneath your dignity. Your grand-parents had a 

different word of burger flipping. They called it opportunity. They weren't 

embarrassed making minimum wage either. They would have been embarrassed to sit 

around talking about Kurt Cobain all weekend.  

Rule No. 6: It's not your parents' fault. If you screw up, you are responsible. This 

is the flip side of "It's my life," and "You're not the boss of me," and other 

eloquent proclamations of your generation. When you turn 18, it's on your dime. 

Don't whine about it, or you'll sound like a baby boomer.  

Rule No. 7: Before you were born your parents weren't as boring as they are now. 

They got that way paying your bills, cleaning up your room and listening to you tell 

them how idealistic you are. And by the way, before you save the rain forest from 

the blood-sucking parasites of your parents' generation, try delousing the closet in 

your bedroom.  

Rule No. 8: Your school may have done away with winners and losers. Life hasn't. In 

some schools, they'll give you as many times as you want to get the right answer. 

Failing grades have been abolished and class valedictorians scrapped, lest anyone's 

feelings be hurt. Effort is as important as results. This, of course, bears not the 

slightest resemblance to anything in real life. (See Rule No. 1, Rule No. 2 and Rule 

No. 4)  

Rule No. 9: Life is not divided into semesters, and you don't get summers off. Not 

even Easter break. They expect you to show up every day. For eight hours. And you 

don't get a new life every 10 weeks. It just goes on and on. While we're at it, very 

few jobs are interesting in fostering your self-expression or helping you find 

yourself. Fewer still lead to self-realization. (See Rule No. 1 and Rule No. 2.)  

Rule No. 10: Television is not real life. Your life is not a sitcom. Your problems 

will not all be solved in 30 minutes, minus time for commercials. In real life, 

people actually have to leave the coffee shop to go to jobs. Your friends will not 

be as perky or pliable as Jennifer Aniston.  Rule No. 11: Be nice to nerds. You may 

end up working for them. We all could.  

Rule No. 12: Smoking does not make you look cool. It makes you look moronic. Next 

time you're out cruising, watch an 11-year-old with a butt in his mouth. That's what 

you look like to anyone over 20. Ditto for "expressing yourself" with purple hair 

and/or pierced body parts.  

Rule No. 13: You are not immortal. (See Rule No. 12.) If you are under the 

impression that living fast, dying young and leaving a beautiful corpse is romantic, 

you obviously haven't seen one of your peers at room temperature lately.  

Rule No. 14: Enjoy this while you can. Sure parents are a pain, school's a bother, 

and life is depressing. But someday you'll realize how wonderful it was to be a kid. 

Maybe you should start now.  

You're welcome.

The $400 Challenge!

This weekend seems more dreary than others. It could be that the weather's pretty bad or it could be that I was not feeling too good the past week. Hmmm... but I feel that the real reason could be the amount of work yet undone. Work is really a chore. I guess that's why we get paid to do work. Otherwise, there's really no good reason for us to work ya? To hell with work satisfaction! The only satisfaction I'll get is when I can afford to "work" as a hobby and not for necessity.

Enough whining about work I guess... everyone's plagued with the exact same problem. Unless one's still a student. =_= Oh how I envy these kids. 

J revealed that one of her colleagues survived on $270 a month. My jaw literally just dropped. I can spent double... no, make that triple that amount in one day without breaking a sweat! As such, I'm feeling shamed at my spendthrift ways. $270 or even $300 a month is impossible for me. I can't even spend within that budget since I entered NUS. So! I'll take on the $400/month challenge from the 12th April to the 11th May! No more impulse buys, no more (too) expensive meals, most importantly, no more cab rides back from town! Will take public transport from now on! Hell! If that's not enough, I'll even pack food for school!

I haven't spent within that budget for at least 3-4 years now. Hopefully, my $400 challenge will succeed! =)

Shopping! Whee!!!!

Spend loads of money today! Hehe... though that's nothing to be gleeful about, I still feel happy! Today can be classified as a good day. All thoughts of school were not entertained and it felt like a holiday. Went shopping with J (my FFD) and it was great! No point going out with someone who's not willing to spend. Then I'll feel bad being the only one spending money. Haha... that's why all my buddies are spendthrifts! Like me!

Items bought today:

1. Thomas Sabo Charms (the cutest possible London Bus and New York taxi)
2. 2 pairs of shoes from Nine West (couldn't decide between the two so bought both in the end)
3. Books and Borders membership (shouldn't begrudge good books!)
4. Cosmetics! (Channel Lipgloss and Lancome Mascara)
5. Fancl stuff
6. Marks and Spencer snacks for idiot brother and idiot students... not to mention my idiotic but wonderful colleagues... 

Needless to say... wallet's significantly thinner but worth it! Increment's coming along in a few days time, and there's no longer the burden of a loan! =) Banzai!!

GOOD Friday!

Not a bad day today. First and foremost, it's a HOLIDAY! And then I found out that my credit card bills will be covered quite comfortably. Thank goodness for all the "extra goodies" this month. Perhaps I ought to save some money. =)

March holidays at a glance

Nothing really made an impression actually... except the way I spent my money. And a gathering at KK's new pad. Was really nice... actually tempted me to get my own place for a second... but just a second though. I love my mummy and daddy too much to live apart from them! Haha.

Its march and something just got to me. I don't know what.... but it's been bugging me. All I can do is to numb that feeling by randomly spending money... wahahahahahhahaha.... so not true, but at least I bothered to give an excuse for the ridiculous spending spree.

Bought a PSP not too long ago... but the price's not too expensive. But it's only the warm ups!

My baby PSP

 

The highlight was my online purchases! Some of them arrived today!


It came in a pretty NAP black box!

My Precious!

Unfortunately, my cashmere wrap vaguely resembles a hospital blanket and is much too long for my short frame. T_T But it can be salvage! I'll use it when I go to NYC next year! No pics for that coz it's too ridiculous!

My next few ridiculous but endorphins inducing purchases! 

A nice necklace from Agne B... it came with a little key... but I lost it! T_T

A variety of little charms from Agne B.

Hehe... feel like getting more and more! 

As a matter of fact! I did! Just not from Agne B. Saw little cute charms in random shops and bought a few new ones. 

My dress arrived! But I couldn't take a nice picture of it. It's a little too big... but I can deal with that. Haha...

Overall expenditure this month is horrendous. 

Let's see...

PSP + memory card + mod + misc -$500

Dress -51 pounds ($153)

Hospital blanket -94 pounds ($282)

Precious bag -351 pounds ($1053)

Necklace -$55

Charms - $345 

More Charms - hmm... bout $55 I guess

OMFG -Total -$2443

Maybe I should cut down on my expanses this month...

Finally a break! Or perhaps just the illusion of one. =_=

Whichever it is, I'm grateful! 10 weeks is no joke! I nearly died, or killed someone! Preferably the latter. So even though there's going to be extra lessons, meetings, courses and shitwork this coming week, it'll still be better than the last 10 weeks. It's made better by the fact that the next few fridays will be taken up by good friday and sports day! SWEET! No training! Wahahahaha...

I find that its really much better to give thanks for all the small favours and to take pleasure in the small things. March is turning out to be quite a good month! 

1. There's the term break!
2. PB is coming! More $$$$$$$ (YUM)
3. Bought myself a PSP! (My monthly indulgence)
4. Bought myself a new Johnny Depp movie to watch!
5. Bought myself a pretty new bag! (My monthly indulgence Part II)
6. No training for 3 Fridays out of the 4/5 in March!
7. Hmmm... can't think of any at the moment! But I'm sure something good will happen soon!