Fish

This is really ridiculous. I just got into an argument with my mum over a bloody fish! Or rather, I would say that I can't agree with her attitude. The fish was dying so she wanted my maid to scope it up and throw it away without delay. She wouldn't even buy medicine from the aquarium to give it a chance. When I asked if she was going to do the same to Toby when he's dying, she said yes. I got angry and said that then she shouldn't expect better from me when she gets older. As soon as the words are out of my mouth, I kinda regretted them but I just couldn't back down. So now I'm not speaking to her. I regretted my words but I still don't agree with her attitude and her way of doing things. She may be my parent but she's not always right. I think I ought to consider this point in future when dealing with my kids.

Self Gratification Rocks!

Haha... Today's the long awaited day of the month and I blew a few hundred bucks in the space of a few hours... Sigh... I need professional help I do... But I feel so happy buying all those stuff! I went out with the intention of getting a new top and a pair of birkenstock. I ended up with no top (T_T), a pair of birkenstock (within expectation), a new pair of wedges(which my mum says looks exactly the same as my other pairs of wedges), a limited edition shimmer powder + lip gloss from Dior (they were so pretty that I couldn't resist them) and managed to settle Candice's upcoming birthday present! *feels accomplished* but the downside is that I'm now poorer and my school work's been left undone. Still, it was a good day today... with good food, good company and a satisfying bitching session. =P

Here's me and Nat acting spaz as usual...

Auntie and Ra posed for the camera... i.e. acting cute... esp auntie... wah lau... hahaha... but they're really cute lah... =P

Here's a pic of Nat acting spaz... which is her usual self by the way... while I try to appear composed and poised. hahahahahaaahaha....

This is more or less the only decent pic taken of us that doesn't involved any of us acting/appearing spaz or loony... =_=

Moving's a bitch!

argh... I never knew I have so much stuff that I don't need yet reluctant to throw away... every move involves decisions. What to throw, what to keep, what to pack and what to leave behind. It's tough making these decisions because somewhere down the line, I know I'll look back and think.. "Damn! I shouldn't have thrown XYZ away!!" but right now, it's too much of a hassle to bring everything along.

One thing keeps my spirits up though! I'm looking forward to meeting up with dearest J tomorrow and payday the day after!!! *grinz*

*wails*

T_T

I had forgotten to return my teachers investiture gown before the 6th of this month and lost my deposit of bout 50 bucks in the process. T_T I thought the deadline was the 8th!!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHH........my money.... my heart aches with the thought of the lost 50 bucks! T_T

Had my teachers investiture ceremony recently. One of the highlights of the month of July. Not because of the ceremony itself of course, it's the people that mattered. Met with the nie peeps for a round of much needed bitching. =P


Thought I'll upload some of the nicer pictures took recently as a break from the recent spree of "complaints" masquerading as blog entries. =P

A brand new month!!

Not a good day today. But I'll live. My classroom management skills still need tons of polishing I guess. But I really cannot take my sch's discipline policy. Whatever the kids did wrong, it's always "talk to them nicely"... what kind of a message are they trying to send out to the kids? Do something bad and the teachers will talk to you nicely about it? WTF!?

I'm pissed that this kinda kids exist and kinda glad that my form class don't have anyone like that in it. In fact, despite being rather naughty... ok... very naughty, my form class is also very sweet. Some of them even offered to help me "deal with that kid". Haha... I guess in life, you win some and you lose some. Nothing can be perfect... in fact, nothing should be perfect.

Here's hoping that everyone in my class can pass their history test and that tomorrow will be a better day! =)

It's sunday again...

It just kills me... that time passes so fast in the weekend! And so slowly during the week... The only saving grace is that I'll see my form class on monday. But knowing them, I'll probably leave the class fuming. =_=

When I'm feeling low, I'll just take out some of the reflections they wrote on friday and read em. And I'll realised (or rather reaffirmed) that it's not about me. It's about the kids. It's about helping them be all that they can be. I may not be able to do that well, but I have to try.

Oh well, as we all know, "self-centered" is my middle name. Let's hope that this belief lasts past this coming week.

Friday is my favourite day of the week!!

First off, today's my dearest dad's birthday!! Happy birthday papa!! Here's wishing you all the happiness in the world, not to forget good business and better luck in 4D! hehe...

Ok! Back to the subject of "friday". I'm always chirpy on fridays! It's really my favourite day of the entire week... because the weekend is here!!! That's how I live... from one weekend to the next. =P

But school is getting more tolerable. I love some of my kids... not all of them of course... but the majority are really adorable. Especially my form class. Yes, they may be a little naughty and noisy... ok... make that very noisy and inattentive at times, but they are really sweet. I never thought I'll say this but I love teaching them, talking to them, seeing them around in school.

Today for PCCG, the class had to write reflections on... basically anything under the sun. Some of the kids wrote some nice stuff bout yours truly. Hehe... and it really warmed my heart. =) Reading their reflections (i.e. some of their thoughts and feelings) made me understand them a little better. I really hope that i'll be able to help them pass their final year paper.

oooh... I love weekends!

Has been an eventful week to say the least. Racial Harmony Day was fun!! That's probably because I don't have any lessons that day. Hahaha...

I'm also getting used to the system over here. That's not to say that I'm entirely happy bout it, but because the people there are so nice, it's been getting easier to cope.

Met up with the people from DS! I miss them so much! They're such a fun bunch to be with. Oh! I think I'll be going for the same training course with H at the end of the year as well! Haha... it'll be fun if SL is going for the same course as well... but I shouldn't curse her lah. It's no fun spending 3-4 weeks of our precious holidays on a course. T_T

Also met up with some of my seniors from JC... hehe... it was fun catching up with them bout various teachers. Realised that the years passed by really fast... how I wish I'm back in JC again... T_T

Haha... enough maudlin stuff... got to get ready to go out! Weekends are too precious to waste!!

Retail therapy really works!

Went out with J on sunday and I went on a shopping spree! I’ve spent all my Isetan vouchers! Some on necessities, some on frivolous things that make me happy. Was thinking… oh what the heck! What does it matter as long as it makes me happy right? I need all the happiness I can get out of school! Hehehe…

On another completely unrelated matter... I've not been to training for ages!! I really need to get back to training... no... it's not to vent my frustrations about the kids and the school. It's so I can learn to better control myself. I keep telling myself... "keep calm and cool... they're not worth it." Sometimes it works, more often than not, it don't. I really think training will help me control myself better...=_=

Pillars of the future? Blah!

What's with the kids nowadays? I mean, don't get me wrong... some of them are so adorable but there's a few of them that made me fear the future. Heh, they're supposed to be the pillars of tomorrow if ya believe all that shit right? I sound like an old fudge but it has to be said. Their behaviour reflects on their upbringing or rather, the lack of which. =_=

Boot camp should suit them just fine! Nampy-pampy treatment is just going to make them worse. =_=

*Sigh*

I feel as though I’m waging a battle every time I go into the classroom. Sometimes I win, sometimes I get a draw… more often than not, I ended up losing the battle. It’s rather tough but I feel that I might be getting used to it. Haha… what else can I do… I have three years more to go.

Yippee for the long weekend!!!

Okies! One week down! And many more to go… T_T

It had been an interesting week to say the least. I can’t say that I was happy but now that it’s over, I do feel that perhaps it’s not so bad after all. =P

Though I’m sure I’ll feel differently once work starts again. Haha… it’s the long weekend! It makes everything seems more bearable. =P

Oh ya! My mentor is damn nice! He kinda reminds me of effendy... hahaha.... the way he looks, the way he speaks! Man... total effendy-like. The people there seems nicer by the day... maybe because I'm getting used to it. *sigh* but I'm still rather apprehensive about the school culture. It's just not what I'm used to. I simply cannot accept the fact that the kids' behaviour is considered acceptable in the school when it's completely unacceptable! Maybe I'm too rigid at the way I look at things but I don't foresee any changes in my perspective in the future because I feel that we shouldn't compromise on certain things. =_=

T_T

I lost my handphone today. As of today I’ll not be contactable through my old number until I get a new HP. T_T

I should get my new HP soon… perhaps Friday or Saturday. *sigh*

Heh. Life's not that bad...

I think I have a pretty good constitution. I fell sick on Monday but on Tuesday, I’m hale and hearty once more! Honestly though, falling sick really puts things into perspectives. I realized that health is something not to be taken for granted. I can’t even read or watch vcds in comfort yesterday. =_= Everytime I cough or sneeze, or move my head, I can feel my brain sloshing from side to side. Haha… sounds disgusting ya. It feels doubly so. =_=

But I’m ok now! I can’t wait for tomorrow!

Pain!!

My headache’s getting from bad to worse…

Actually it’s a migraine. How it hurts… realized that I shouldn’t eat when I’m having a migraine… I’ll puke it all out anyways. =_= Such a waste of money. *sigh* I really should go to see a doctor as J said. The spirit is willing but the flesh is weak. I'm such a procrastinator. =_= Or maybe I'm just addicted to pain. =_=

Met up with the movie gang on Wednesday to have dinner and watch world cup. Anyways, I think I’ve broken my streak of bad luck! I bet on Spain and won!! Kekekeke… oh the Spanish players are all so cute! Almost all of us were gashing over number 9! I think his name is Torres. Ah! So cute! Only silly D was supporting Ukraine. =_=

Should sleep soon... my migraine is killing me. T_T

Resentment

I feel resentful when my mother lectures me on my spending habits and asked me why am I not giving her more money. =_= I feel that it’s very hypocritical of her and my dad to lecture me when I have to pay my own tuition fees when they paid in full for my elder brother. I know many people have it worse than me. They have to pay their loans and take care of their families at the same time. I know. But at the same time, I’m resentful all the same. I’m pretty sure they’ll help my younger brother pay his tuition fees when he goes to university in a few years time on the reason that he’s the youngest. Though I’m sure it’s because he’s a guy and my mother loves him more. The difference in treatment is apparent and disgusting. I won’t do the same to my kids if I have any in the future.

Hehe… thought it was rather funny…

Well, as most of you guys should know, I’m known for having extremely bad luck when it comes to betting on football. Today, it seems that even my support (without the betting) is detrimental to any teams.

Was at the coffeeshop in clementi interchange after training today with my kendo mates. The whole place was packed with people watching the World Cup match between Japan and Australia. Japan was leading 1-0 for most part of the game. But I wasn’t really paying much attention to the match. My fish soup held most of my attention. Then someone asked me which team do I think would win the match. Of course I said Japan. In quick succession, Australia scored not one, not two, but THREE goals. All the kendo peeps look at me with this expression –“=_=” and asked me my prediction for the next match coz they’re going to bet on the opposing team.

Of course it’s not my fault lah if the teams can’t play but it struck me as damn funny. Such a coincidence! Kimchi banned me from supporting the Korean team tomorrow coz she wants it to win. Haha…

Weird Dream

Had a weird dream last night where a few of my good friends died in succession. Now that I’ve been woken up by my HOD’s sms, I really can’t recall the details of the dream. I can only remember being rather sad and depressed. And no… in case any of you are wondering, I didn’t "kill" off any of them. They either died from weird accidents or illnesses. But in quick succession of each other. The feeling was sort of like one died and before you can get over his death, another one kick the bucket. All in all, it was a really weird dream. =_=

Over!

Results are out and everything’s fine and dandy. =)
Pass, credit or distinction… doesn’t really matter to me since it makes no difference in the pay but I wanted some sort of vindication of my two months in DS. And so, I’m rather happy with my practicum credit. The two months of hard work was not wasted indeed. Hehe…

But what I’m really looking forward to, is the increase in pay!! Hehe… that’s the most IMPORTANT component of the whole issue.