On a happier note…

Well… coz I was so upset over the manga…I went to watch some anime… Eyeshield 21 is about American Football… *pui* such a primitive game… but the anime is funny!!







Hee hee… Hiruma is a hell of a character! YA-HA!!

T_T

Went a little crazy during the Kino sale and bought the whole set of the manga (even though it’s in English) and prof F’s new book. Spent too much… as usual. T_T

But I was not the craziest. Para spent nearly 400 bucks… just on mangas… my eyes went @_@ when I saw the amount on the cash register. I guess people get to spent more when they’ll working, and she saved a lot because of the 20% discount. She introduced me to the textbook counter in popular! I didn’t know they sell book covers of every size there….they even measure your books for you. Wah… revelation! Heh. I learn something new everyday.

I feel like bawling my eyes out now!!!! Just finished reading The Demon Ororon vol 4. It just gave me the “what the hell!??” kinda feeling! How could he have died? And nothing’s been resolved! But the last few pages were beautiful… beautifully sad. T_T

I’m shaking with frustration now… I just hate it when mangas or books don’t end the way I want them to.

Wahahaha... Kitty finally wore the tee we got for him a few years back. FINALLY!! Heh. Met up with him on Wednesday at Singapore Post and we saw the "love" of his life in macs. Hehe... he was so shakened by the sight that he refused to come out of LJS for quite a while. I think his knees were weak with LOVE! I told him I'll blog bout it. Sigh... coz of the BT, my mood's gone... so it shall be a short post.
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The cycle of hate continues… my BT is still not done!!! 97% and 0kib/s….it’s utterly frustrating I tell you. J said that I should chart the number of times I complaint bout BT on my blog, and that faith and willpower will make the download go faster… but I guess it’s useless… nothing’s going to make my speed any faster. I’m just staring at the download now… @_@

It’s not moving…T_T

SR understands my pain... he's going through it now. =_= But knowing misery is shared doesn't make it easier... I’m such an idiot! Told J no need to burn Gokusen for me coz my download will finish by the time I’m home. I’m such a goondu! I could be watching it right now instead of watching the download not move… =_=

Met Hen, Ra and Nat for lunch today in town… As usual, I was the first one there. Hen was late for ½ hour while the girls were late for a whole hour!!! =_= Hen came up with some fantastical story bout a bomb on the bus, and that’s why the bus can’t travel above 50km/h. After that he was held up when he helped a pregnant woman give birth. His story got even more absurd when he tried to explain for Ra and Nat by saying that German terrorists entered the bank that they were in and held them hostage… WTH! Hahaha… he’s full of crap man… didn’t really do much except ate, talked and laughed.

The buffet at Merchant Courts was not THAT fantastic… but their desserts were good!!! The durian was especially good. I think J had about 5 or more scopes of durian… pure durian, not ice-cream. Haha… but I guess for the same price, Crystal Jade Palace’s food is better, though it’s not a buffet.

After dinner we went for a beer at one of the micro brewery nearby while SR showed us the pictures he took in Canada. Got to sample lots of different types of beer… but they all taste the same to me. All not nice. =_= *Pui* Well… maybe except for the first one. Golden Ale or something to that effect.

Tried on the fisherman’s trousers Ra got for me in Bangkok… realised that I don’t know how to wear… Ra… help… T_T

Feelin' Good!

Training today was good... Damn tiring but satisfying... tiff tried to tempt me into ditching training for a movie! But I resisted temptation! So proud of meself! *grinz*

T_T

My BT for gokusen special is still at 28%.... BT hates me... it’s a vicious cycle of hate…

=_=

My eyes are like this now…I’ve slept less than two and a half hours and the prospect of more sleep is not very good right now because I want to watch the stuff I got from J last night. So many things to watch… ahhh… decisions decisions…

The reason for the sleep deficit’s coz of the signing of contract at MOE this morning… I had to take a cab back from the “wasteland” back home at 7plus FREAKING am!! And we had to wait so long to sign the bloody thing… met Chris and Shuhuei there as well. They came earlier and also had to wait for a damn long time…

Think I’ll look through the NIE package for a while before I watch all my anime/J-Drama! =)

One Piece… Gakuen Alice… Naruto… Trinity Blood… Yakitate Japan… Lunch no Oujou…

Ahhhhhhhh… it feels real good to be done with school!

The desire to share…. Or the lack there of…

Went out with J today. As usual, we were our gleefully greedy selves. Ordered too much food, so much so that we can’t finish our stuff... (what else is new right? =_=) The left-over amount of waffles on both our plates would have made up a complete one. Oh if only we learnt how to share… we would have saved ourselves much money and the agony of trying to finish the excess food. =P

Lesson of the day: learn to share food. =P

On a happier note, tomorrow is payday!! I’m finally seeing something for the times spent at CP. Feeling good! Woohoo!~

Yosh!!

After Monday’s and Wednesday’s trainings, my old bones are aching… but I guess I got to get pass this stage if I want to get back my stamina. T_T But it was good. I missed trainings and I missed the people there. Well, some of them at least!

Well, on a happier note, I met er jie and he passed me the stuff they helped me buy in Japan! Woohoo!~ I totally love my new shinai!! The grip is so much shorter than my current one… that means I can grip it better with my short arms. =_= and its super light!! Again as compared to my current one which is heavier than a guy’s shinai. =_= Thanx a lot to dear monkey for helping me get the shinai! =) I think I’ll trouble you more in future! Wahahahahaha…

And so, I was oohing and ahhing over my shinai the whole night last night and my mum thought I was weird. She said girls my age will obsess over boys or clothes or anything feminine, but I’m fixated over 4 pieces of bamboo tied together… well, putting it in that way it does sound kinda weird. But I do obsess over other stuff mah... like Daniel Wu and Johnny Depp. =P

He's the perfect man...

Just went to watch the movie "Divergence". What a rubbish movie. Good acting by some of the actors but Aaron Kwok's character seems somewhat overkill... the redeeming feature of this film would have to be Daniel Wu. His rating is way up there in my list of guys to shag with Johnny Depp and well.... Johnny Depp. =P He's just so cute!

Restless

Everything’s over but I’m not as ecstatic as I thought I would be. I’m feeling rather restless actually. The feeling that I want to do something yet I don’t know what to do.

Argh....

Think I’ll go spend some money, or maybe I should clean up my room.

Onwards to the next stage!!!

We were the best of pals back then. But we haven’t kept in touch for ages. My fault I would say. Now, reading her blog, it made me feel sort of sad and melancholy. We’re like living in different worlds. We could almost pass off as strangers. And yet, my life wouldn’t have been the same had I not met her in JC. Haha... perhaps my grades might have been significantly better. =P

Then again, maybe not. =P

Perhaps it would be more accurate to say that I feel as though I’ve remained stagnant while she moves on with life. I feel as though I’ve been left behind. And yet, I can’t say that life remained totally stagnant for me. There are things and people that are very important to me in the past few years, experiences that I wouldn’t trade for anything in the world. I don’t want her life but I’m definitely ready to move on with my own.

Of tonkatsu and mangas...

Was actually planning to blog about the best tonkatsu place I've ever eaten at but after I read the manga I bought, the focus shifted. =P But the tonkatsu place still deserves a mention. Well, the place's called Tonkichi. The picture's of the Ngee Ann City branch but we actually went to the one at Isetan-Scotts. Both J and I agreed that here's a place where the food they serve actually looks like the food on the menu and in the model placed outside the store. Price's reasonable for the quality of food served. =)

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Today I spent 20 over buckaroos on a single volume of manga. Now normally I wouldn't spend that kind of money on a single bloody book ya. But this one's special! Oh man! I'm actually raving bout it! It's been ages since I raved over any manga (Naruto and One Piece excluded).

Ok, I know the title sounds cliché but it's surprisingly good. Though I do have high expectations after J told me it's good. =) Was not in the least disappointed. It's one of the least explicit of mangas in the yaoi genre. Storyline was strong enough and artwork was good. A minimal of melodrama so typical in yaoi mangas. Needless to say, I just absolutely love it! *goes into fan girl mode* =P

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Sense of community...

Perhaps because the semester is coming to an end and I know that I’ll get distracted after exams. I think I should blog it all down before my attention is moved to other matters. For the first time in my 4 years in NUS, there’s this sense of community. I feel as though I belong to a class of my own. For the first three years in NUS, I feel that my life revolved around NUSKK (and friends of course. =_=) I take little or no notice of the lessons I went to or the people in my class (Prof M and his lessons excluded of course =P).

As for the honors class, its just like any other normal classes, you won’t be close to everybody, there’ll always be people you don't really like, and there’ll be people whom you are close to. But it all boils down to the fact that all of us are part of a class. The honors room really helps to foster a sense of belonging. I’m not always there but the times spent there either eating or attempting to study or basically just crapping/gossiping or watching the guys play chess or mahjong are all enjoyable times. When I think back on my NUS days, I’ll surely remember the noisy and smelly (only a little lah) honors room.

I just can't wait!!!

I just can’t wait for tomorrow’s paper to be over!! 1 question in 2 hours... I bet I’ll finish in half the time because I don’t really have a lot of information in my brain now. It’s killed by endless hours of crapping and gossiping in the honors room today. Hehe... but I’m sure I’ll be able to churn out something for tomorrow.

ZX called about some tickets for sale for “Ghost in the Shell” on Saturday but I can’t go... coz I still have exams. T_T

We started talking about training and I realized that I’m so going to die when I go back for training. Prolonged period of inactivity is so going to retard my performance. ZX even said he want to keiko with me when I go back for training. I’m so gonna die... Even without the long absence in training, I get trashed by him every single time. I shudder to think of the outcome when I next go back for training. And yet, in spite of the fear, there’s this weird sense of anticipation.

Ahhhhhhh... I can’t wait for exams to be over

Feelin’ Sick

Started the day with a headache… seems that I’ll end the day with one too. There’s this crazy moth in my room and it absolutely refuses to fly out. =_= Toby went crazy trying to catch it.

The room’s in a mess because of a crazy moth and a crazy dog. =_=

Virus...I HATE thee...

I so want to kill its fucking inventor... If I ever meet the person who invented this virus, I want to crack every single finger on his/her hands... so he/she cannot touch a keyboard ever again... I want to break their necks! A chill ran down my spine as I typed that. Haha... I guess my violent tendencies have not receded fully.

My msn was infected today by this weird virus. Of course I have to admit that I was being stupid. Sigh... I really don’t know what was the matter with me. First the stupid debit card issue then now this stupid virus. Why was I so baka? I’m really not thinking clearly these days. =_=

Thanx eddie for attempting to help me with the problem this afternoon. =)

Hopefully the system restore will work!!

Thanx chris for suggesting this. =)

Anger-management...

I think I have this innate rage inside me. It’s being tampered by a lot of factors. But it boils to the surface every once in a while and I don’t really know how to handle it. When I’m irritated, every single small thing will irritate the hell out of me. It’s a vicious cycle.

I need to go back for training... it balances me.

MRT incidents

Well, I’m sure lots of us have had incidents on MRTs. Encountered weird, rude, even obnoxious people. It’s public transport after all… we’ll get to meet all sorts of people. Well, I’ve met people who pretended to sleep so that they don’t have to give up their seats, some looked anywhere else but at the old fellow, some looked damned uncomfortable yet refused to stand up. I’ve also met people who blatantly refused to give up their seats (well, at least they’re honest bout it).

Today was the best! I was standing, this middle-aged woman was to my right and an old man was also standing to my left. We were the only three people standing in that particular cabin. The people sitting were mostly young people, teens to people in early twenties. You get the drift. One person stood up and alighted at the next stop. The empty seat was right in front of me. Being the nice person I am (haha) I did not sit down. Just as the old man was making his way towards the seat, the woman made a dash for it and sat down. Can you imagine the cheek of it! And then, proceeded to take out a book which turned out to be a bible and read through it. =_= oooohhh... how pious.

Needless to say, I was extremely disgusted. =_=

Short People

Ra sent me this song... It’s a blatant attack against short people... haha... but it’s a damn nice song lah!
Got the lyrics from here

Short People by Randy Newman

Short People got no reason
Short People got no reason
Short People got no reason
To live

They got little hands
Little eyes
They walk around
Tellin' great big lies
They got little noses
And tiny little teeth
They wear platform shoes
On their nasty little feet

Well, I don't want no Short People
Don't want no Short People
Don't want no Short People
`Round here

Short People are just the same
As you and I
(A Fool Such As I)
All men are brothers
Until the day they die
(It's A Wonderful World)

Short People got nobody
Short People got nobody
Short People got nobody
To love

They got little baby legs
That stand so low
You got to pick 'em up
Just to say hello
They got little cars
That go beep, beep, beep
They got little voices
Goin' peep, peep, peep
They got grubby little fingers
And dirty little minds
They're gonna get you every time
Well, I don't want no Short People
Don't want no Short People
Don't want no Short People
'Round here

and then its done!

The essay's done! I'm going to school soon to hand it up. Thanks be to the powers beyond and to ermita and celine. haha... without whose help, the essay would never have seen the light of day. But its still crap lah! =_=

And thanx to J for the cheering and the @_@ pictures sent that woke me up from lala land... thus made me go on to finish the stupid piece of crap... *snigger*

yosh! off to school to hand in stuff and get dvd from ra now! ra is the best lah!


Edit: today's my er jie's birthday!! happy happy birthday er jie!! buy me lots of stuff when u go japan next week k! i can't wait! my new shinai's coming back with u ya! *drool*

Taking a break…

J suggested that I take a break from lockie’s essay. Have bout 500 or so words and brain refuses to work anymore. Reading through what I just wrote, I’m not sure of its viability. I mean… even I don’t buy what I wrote… how can lockie buy it?

So what am I doing now? I’m playing solitaire on the computer…T_T
Honestly, I can’t think of anything less loser-ish than this. But what to do… thinking too much hurts my brain… T_T

DON'T MESS WITH THE PIG!
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Haha...it's my wallpaper now. Thanks J, for sending the link over. It's really really adorable!

The end is near…

Finished my last presentation, went for my last class. There’s only one more essay left to do before I’m done. Exams excluded of course. =_= It seems that the end is approaching, soon I’ll cease to be a full-time student. (yes, NIE is another academic factory but I’ll be getting paid there... so it doesn’t count. =P)

After being part of the system for 18 years, inclusive of kindergarten, I fear I’m very much a product of the system. And that scares me because I do not want to be stuck in schools for the next 20 years to come without trying something else first. But I guess it all boils down to my own decision. Teaching is something I really want to try out. If it doesn’t suit me, *shrugs* then I’ll just have to start afresh 4 years into the future.

Mood was not the greatest after getting back DDR’s paper. =_=

A good dinner with good company never fails to put me back in a good mood. J my dear, thanx for the company! Was sitting on the floor at the taka sq eating ice-cream with J just now when I realized that it’ll be hard doing the same thing in the future. =_= But hack it, I'll probably be doing the exact same stuff I'm doing at the present. =P

Watching this anime called “Monster” now when I should be doing my SEA essay. It’s about a young boy who’s apparently a psychotic killer. It’s freaking me out. T_T I don’t know why I do this to myself. T_T

Of impulse buys and weird kitty...

I don’t know how many times I told myself “never again”, but I never seem to follow my own advice. T_T Impulse buys seems to be very much a part of my life. Just bought 50 bucks worth of Korean drama that is DUBBED! Words alone cannot express my hatred to dubbed stuff…and yet I still bought it. Ahhhhhhhh…..my 50 bucks!!!! I’m so going to live on bread and water for the rest of the week. =_=

I must let J watch this too….absolutely refuse to suffer alone. T_T buddies must share everything… even the excruciating pain of watching Korean actors speak Chinese with a Beijing accent! =_=

Oh….I really must blog about the latest weirdness of the kitty kat. He wants to be a kept man! Hahaha...

O_o XXXXXXX - early april back in 05...what a very special time for me... to do assignments what a night.. says:
i dun mind for a certain sum of $$ and food to be a kept man

after some crapping....he actually said he'll do BDSM....=_=

O_o XXXXXXX - early april back in 05...what a very special time for me... to do assignments what a night.. says:
i can learn how to tahan candles...
O_o XXXXXXXX - early april back in 05...what a very special time for me... to do assignments what a night.. says:
lol
T_T says:
LOL!!!
T_T says:
I cannot stop laughing lah!!! silly kitty@!
O_o XXXXXXXX - early april back in 05...what a very special time for me... to do assignments what a night.. says:
see see... how good i will be.. or am actually lol
O_o XXXXXXXX - early april back in 05...what a very special time for me... to do assignments what a night.. says:
lemme test out with this little candle... oooOOoooO pain pain.. sia...
O_o XXXXXXXX - early april back in 05...what a very special time for me... to do assignments what a night.. says:
lol
T_T says:
entertaining lah.....but unfortunately i cannot afford u lah.
T_T says:
you're beyond my means
T_T says:
=P
O_o XXXXXXXX - early april back in 05...what a very special time for me... to do assignments what a night.. says:
nooooOOoooooo....
O_o XXXXXXXX - early april back in 05...what a very special time for me... to do assignments what a night.. says:
now i have to go back to the 55 yr old tai tai..
- -'

I have ultra super duper weird friends!!!!

Edit: at his request...I got to admit the fact that he's an ultra nice kitty lah. Helped me alot with conceptionalising my japanese occupation essay. Though the actual question is not exactly out yet, I do have a better idea of what I'm going to do! Thanx kitty!

Grumpy

Think I’m losing hair... must be due to stress... T_T How?!!! I don’t want to visit Yun Nam with slart and hen! =_= blew the whole morning and afternoon watching or rather fast-forwarding through this ridiculous Korean drama called Memories in Bali where in the end, 3 out of the 4 main leads died. =_= I so wanted to throw the vcds away when I saw the ending! Then I remembered that the vcds are my cuz’s, not mine. *pissed* Freaking waste of my time!!!

Spent the rest of the afternoon looking for pictures of the Japanese Occupation. I swear my eyes are like this @_@ now. Found some good stuff but I just can’t seem to find any good pictures of the Japanese, especially the Kempeitais. T_T It’s 1 plus in the morning and I’m still searching... it’s not as though I don’t have the pictures, but scanning will be such a hassle! =_=

Have to miss training again tomorrow because of the stupid presentation. =_= It’s the last presentation of my NUS life. I do want to put in more effort. But I want to go training... I’m afraid that I’ll spend away the $60 meant for SKC membership fees if I don’t pay tiff soon.

As usual, BT hates me and I'll have to wait 160 hours before my download completes. =_=

Black Saizou, Grey J

Retail therapy works, but if it doesn’t, we’ll just mow down the world. =_=

Stage Beauty

Stage Beauty
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Went out with dot yesterday night... and dot sent me home in a lorry! Haha... pretty cool though. Dot’s skilled man. Can drive any vehicles. Hahaha…evening was marred when dot revealed that one of the rabbits have scabies. Oh god... I nearly freaked out! J was freaked out too... when I told her bout it. Poor J... was in super close contact with the jacket of the super-infector! Hohoho... come to think bout it... I was holding the jacket for quite a long while on Thursday as well. =_=

Anyways, we went to watch Stage Beauty. It’s a damn funny show! The emotions were pretty intense as well. Billy Crudup was beautiful. The scene that really got me was when King Charles II wanted Kynaston to act the part of Othello on stage, wanting him to show that he could act as a “he” as well as he could act as a “she”. Man... it wrenches my heart to see him sobbing on stage because he couldn’t do it despite repeated attempts. T_T His range of facial expression is amazing... especially compared to Keanu Reaves ! =P But the show was astonishing... I so want to watch it again... on second thoughts, I think I’ll get the DVD. =)

On a happier note, my group managed to finish our MNO project today! Though I think half the things we said about Yamashita is dubious at the least, it’s done! Now we’ll just have to see if the poor TA marking our projects would fall for it or not. =P

Parcels thru the mail!

I got a parcel from N0g0al nee-chan today. A lot a lot of candies, chocolates and a UCLA t-shirt that now smells of the candies he packed it with. =) Heh. I’m not really sure why he sent the parcel. The postage must have cost him. =(

But I’m pretty happy. Getting parcels thru the mail is truly a wonderful feeling... I don’t get them very often but when I do, I’m really happy. Thanks ng-neechan! *hugz*

MOE Briefing

Went for the briefing at MOE today. Even though J warned me bout being late, I was still one of the stragglers... coming in at 135 out of 150 in total. Woah…the wait was horrendous. I forgot to bring anything to read. Hungry and bored... the worst combination... T_T lucky I have celine, val and gang to keep me company. =)

Heh. It seems that everyone and their mothers are going to teach. Met Terr para para toh there. Haha... it has been ages since I last seen that bugger. =P I knew he was bonded! But I just didn’t expect it to be with MOE. Even charles is going to teach! Shocku! Correction: I think Charles is already teaching at a school, teaching PE and English. *Double Shocku*

But I think they’ll gonna be very popular with the girls. =_= well maybe charles will be popular with the guys lah. But terr definitely will be popular among the girls. Sigh... hard to believe it’s been 4 years since I knew these guys. Terr even said he still has the video we shot for the stupid JS project in our first semester. Projects were fun back then. T_T

=_=

I have this horrible headache… and a stiff neck. I think it’s stress-related. Why do I always do this to myself? =_=

Life should be simple.

my eyes are like this...=_=

It’s bout 4 plus am in the morning and I’m still sitting in front of the computer, willing my downloads to go faster. T_T Just got back 1 hour ago… went to watch Swing Girls with the AK people, then we just sat and ate and talk and laugh from after the movie till 3plus. Vape and Para gave me a belated birthday treat at Tao’s today. Was totally not expecting it, but thanks guys!

Swing Girls is a really hilarious movie! The guy who directed “Waterboys” is also the director for “Swing Girls” I highly recommend it! It’s about a group of girls (and a boy) who wanted to form a jazz band. Big band jazz to be precise. The music’s real cool and the movie really has its moments. Ra says she rates movies by their prices…haha….using the same scale in my opinion, $8.50 is the price for the movie! Even if you watched it on a weekend, you won’t regret it. But I shouldn’t hyped it up too much! I guess why we enjoyed the show so much was coz a group of people in high school uniforms suddenly went up to the front of the cinema to dance when the “Swing Girls” was performing. It was so funny, they just stood up and went up to the front to dance. One couple even went to the back of the cinema coz there were no more space in front. Heh. At first we thought they were spontaneous Japanese high school kids out on a lark. But they turned out to be Cos-players. Haha…but still, the atmosphere in the cinema was great!

Oh, one more thing…

My mood’s not the greatest this past week and I’m not feeling very good recently also. Please pardon my mood swings. I know I shouldn’t take it out on you, but sometimes I just can’t help it. If I appeared surly or snapped at you or suddenly just clammed up without reason, then I’m really sorry. If there’s a reason behind it, then perhaps you should reflect upon it. =_= Perhaps I really should take a step back and look at matters from a larger perspective. It’ll really clear up my mind and perhaps my mood will take a turn for the better! =)

my new bookshelf!

Dot built me a bookshelf. Not bad for a first timer ya. I remember my eyes went @_@ when she told me she bought the wood to build a bookshelf for me. =P Well...I wasn't really expecting alot... haha...but this really exceeds my expectations. I'm honestly touched though I DON'T view the transportation and cleaning process with anticipation. =_=

Hmmm... I don't think it's gonna fit all my books and mangas... perhaps it's time to clear up my room a little. =P

Friends?

Sometimes I really wonder why people became friends. Is it because of common interests? Or are we attracted to certain qualities in others? At some point in time, you’ll get to notice the other person’s flaws and idiosyncrasies. There’s sure to be disagreements. What happens then? Perhaps it’s how you deal with all these that determine whether a friendship deepens or wither away. When is the transitional point when strangers became acquaintances and then to friends? When is the point when you look at someone and say, he/she is your friend, instead of your classmate or schoolmate? I’m still not very sure on that point. That’s why I guess I’m a little leery about people I’ve not known for a long time. There are exceptions of course. I may look like it. but I’m just not really a people’s person I guess.

Fucking BT

I spent the whole fucking day trying to download H2 episode 3 via BT. The WHOLE FUCKING DAY!!! Right now what is the percentage at? A freaking 91%! It’s had been 91% since 5 in the afternoon and now it’s almost 10.30pm already. T_T Sandrock is right. It’s a vicious cycle. BT hates me and I hate BT. It’s a never-ending cycle of hate. =_= I think I can forget about wanting to watch the episode by tonight. Fuck it!

Oh, bout what I said in the earlier post about skinning the perpetuators if it was my younger brother whom they tortured and killed, I take that back. That little bugger can fight his own battles from now on. The two fucking torrents he’s running are part of the reason my stupid H2 BT is at 0kb/s now. I so want to SMACK him! That idiot!

Oooh…it’s at 92% now! At this rate, I’ll be able to watch my episode sometime before noon tomorrow…now why can’t I feel happy about it? Grrrrrrr……

Grrrr......

Was out with J today and we started talking bout various issues. Euthanasia, child molesters, child murderers, serial murderers integrating back into society etc. The moral dilemmas that come up in some of these cases. J mentioned that in the states, people who committed sex crimes against kids will actually be identified by the government even after they served their sentence, so called paid their dues to society. There’ll be a huge sign outside their houses stating, “a child molester lives here”, pamphlets will be given out to neighbors citing his identity and his crimes etc. On first thought, that does sound rather horrid doesn’t it? Since that guy had already paid his dues to society, he had served his punishment. Don’t he deserve a chance to start afresh? Yeah…these were my views in the beginning too. But if that person preyed on your kids, I’m pretty sure your thinking will take a 180 degree turn. It’s always difficult when matters turn personal. Some of these ex-convicts, they just can’t help themselves. What attracted them to children in the first place? Some kind of sick urging? Would prison cure that? I’m not so sure myself… would you want to expose your kids or younger siblings to such a character?

There’s this new movie coming out soon called “The Woodsman”, starring Kevin Bacon. It’s about a pedophile who returns to his hometown after 12 years in prison and attempts to start a new life. I think this movie’s going to be interesting to say the least. Kevin Bacon’s one of my all-time favorites too. =P

Besides the cases of the pedophiles, there’s the child murderers to consider. Can we condone them their crimes merely because they are kids? What a worthless excuse! The case of Mary Bell came up. She tortured and killed 2 young boys, I think aged 3 and 4 respectively when she was 10. Is this scary or what? In 2003, the courts granted her lifelong anonymity. Is this fucked up or what? Apparently, the courts wanted to protect the killer and her teenage daughter from vigilantes. I say let them have at her. What’s worse is that she sold her story for money!!!! Can you all believe that? I can’t take that she snuffed out two young lives just for fun and now she’s living a good life with her daughter with the money she made from selling her story bout how and why she killed those boys... or rather toddlers.

“Brian was found covered with grass and purple weeds. He had been strangled.
Nearby, a pair of broken scissors lay in the grass. There were puncture marks on
his thighs, and his genitals had been partially skinned. Clumps of his hair were
cut away.”

Isn't it disgusting? She doesn't even know the kid... he's just a kid from one of the houses in the neighbourhood. WTF!

It’s the same with the case of the 2 bastards who tortured and killed the small boy at some railway track some years ago. James Bulger I believe his name was. Cute kid who died because of some vicious punkasses… The courts granted them anonymity too. Spent millions of dollars in fact trying to hide their identity and creating new identities for them each time the press found them out. Grrrrrrrr…..those kids are pure evil. They ought to have been snuffed out! =_= man…some of the things I read about the case still gives me the shivers! And I’m filled with this rage, this unquenchable rage that made me understand why the vigilantes do the things they do. I shudder to imagine if it was my brother who was taken out, tortured and murdered just for the fun of it. Hell! I’ll skin the bastards who did it!

I’ll have to admit that I’m a very judgmental person. Don’t give me all that crap about forgiveness cause I don’t buy it. I believe you are fundamentally responsible for your actions. I believe you should PAY for what you do. No ifs, no buts, no excuses, no fucking bullshit bout how she’s only a child!

^_^

Discovered a new place today! It’s at far east plaza 5th floor. A quaint little place called Wasabi Tei. Recommended to us by the Sunny people. Haha… I guess they know all the good places within far east. It’s their territory after all. Anyways, back to Wasabi Tei, it’s pretty authentic in my opinion. The ambience, the environment, even completed by the stereotypical temperamental Japanese chef! Though I think he’s Chinese…hmmm…he looks Japanese though. =P

The food’s nice and the price is cheap as well. My only grouse with the place is that it’s really too small…..and the hygiene level is not all that high. =P Oh! One more thing! I was pleasantly surprised when I found out that they don’t have the 5% GST, 10% service charge that most places had. =) That’s in their favour!

Went shopping with J after dinner…it was a good trip!~ hehe….spent over a hundred bucks though. But it was money well spent! =)

Perhaps I’m really an impulse buyer. Thoroughly a victim of the “I want it and I want it now!” syndrome.

The waiting's over...

I got the offer from MOE. But the problem is, I’m not sure if I’ll be going to NIE straight or teaching at a school first. Aiyah… but the pay is good leh. And I can start planning for my year end trip abroad. =P

Yay!

Byebye...

so sad...the picture is slightly blurred.

we took this pic with Takeuchi Sensei before he left for Japan. T_T

T_T

I just finished my historiography paper. But I’m not happy coz essentially, it’s a piece of crap. I started at 3 and I finished at 6. The quality is shit! T_T I still got to work on a presentation for Dr D’s module. Fucking irritating………

And I’m sick…down with flu. Worst thing about it is that I can’t taste my food now. When I eat chocolate, all I can taste is how sweet it is. Now all you chocolate lovers out there know that chocolates are more than just sweet ya? If I want sweet, I’d have gone to eat sugar instead. =_=

And I have no money left.

My life is sad.

T_T

Bogged down

Been thinking a lot about my future prospects recently too. Comparing the pros and cons of being in the civil service, ie. MOE, to working in the private sector. I fear I’ve been a product of the system for too long. I feel unsettled if my future’s not accounted for. Being in MOE would be the most stable path to take. A lot of my history classmates will also be at NIE! That’s a good thing I guess. It’ll be almost like school. And I’ll most probably take the offer if they offer it to me.
Note: I haven’t actually gotten the offer yet. I’m just assuming that I get it. If I get it, I’ll be spared the anxieties and apprehension of searching for a job in the private sector.

But the private sector has its own advantages too. The nature of the work, the opportunities, the experiences, the pay… and unless I plan to stay a teacher for life, I guess I can’t escape the anxieties and apprehension that most everyone have to go through. Will i be able to give up the relatively high pay at MOE to start all over again in the private sect0r? I honestly don't know. Oh well, if MOE rejected me, I guess I’ll take a chance and try out the JET program in December. If they accepted me, I’ll have to try out for it 4 years down the road. =P

I feel like taking a trip. Getting away from the never-ending drudgery of schoolwork. But alas, it’s all wistful thinking. Can’t afford the time nor have the money to do anything bout the trip. J suggested that we go Taiwan. Think that’s a rather nice place to visit, since I haven’t been there before. Oh well, maybe in the May/June holidays I guess.... =)

Psychopathic

Recently I’ve been having recurring dreams. I don’t usually blog about dreams but this has been rather disturbing and putting it down into words may help I guess.

I’m always walking down this alley. And there’s someone behind me, trying to attack me from behind. I’ll turn around and snap that person’s neck. God knows where I get the reflex and the strength but the snap and the crack of the bone is always so satisfying. I don’t even remember the person’s face or the gender but I remember the satisfaction of breaking a bone/snapping a neck. It’s like a thrill down my spine.

I fear I’ve got a psychopath in me. =_=

Woah...the recent heat wave is killing me... I never hated the weather in Singapore so much. And they say it's only going to get hotter in the next few weeks! Oh god.... how am I going to survive the heat!!


Just when I was moaning and groaning over how hot it was (still is) in Singapore, my idiot friend in Canada sent me pics of snow mountains he took while snowboarding! The foot in the corner is his. =_= *jealous*

I wanna go snowboarding too! I wanna visit the mountains... T_T

ps: this is my very first post on my new desktop! yay!

Yipee!!!

Yay! My new desktop has arrived!!! It’s a Compaq Presario! Super cool! Haha… maybe it’s because I haven’t got a desktop in a long while… hmmm… but it’s still cool! Oooooh…. I’m so excited! Hahaha…. I sound so juvenile. =P hehe…like J said, I’m going to spend the rest of my Saturday huggling my new system!

*huggle huggle huggle*


PS: Congrats to kitty-chan for coming in 3rd in today's Xsquare racing competition! Sorry for "flying your kite" today! But computer is more important lah! =P

PPS: kitty-chan, you can't deny it! You’re a GAMBLING ADDICT!! Forever going on and on bout mahjong. =P

Day of Reckoning

23rd February 2005

Today is the day my trusty laptop finally conked off. T_T

Through my (coming to) four years in the university, it has been with me, through good times and bad. I think to a certain extent, the reason I procrastinated bringing it to the com center was because I sort of have this gut feeling that my baby would not make it this time. T_T

Thanks nat and witchy for whiling away the time with me at the com center, providing me with endless entertainment and gossip!

Adios my beloved! Know that I shall miss you dearly… T_T

On a good note, my mummy has agreed to buy me a desktop! Yipee!!

Dependency….

I realized that I’m severely dependent on my trusty hand-phone! My baby HP was left at home yesterday night when dot biked me to J’s place for a sleepover aka leaching session. =P I was devastated! Restless and uneasy the whole freaking night. Though I had a good time leaching off J’s massive anime and mp3 collections... wahahahaha... but still, there’s still the nagging feeling of unease. So much so that I woke up at 9 freaking a.m. when I slept at 5plus to take a cab home to my baby HP. =_=

I sure hope I don’t fall asleep during the job later on. =_=

Character traits

Actually, J and me has talked bout it quite some time ago. But the topic came up again during dinner on Monday. Why do we dislike some people and not others? Ok.... some of them is coz of the face. The moment I see you, I just can’t stand you. Not your fault but mine, but I really don’t care very much. Others are due to certain character traits that they exhibits... sometimes, I feel that the reason I don’t like these character traits very much is because deep down inside, I fear I either exhibit or have the potential for these very same characteristics. J also joked (or maybe J’s not jokin... T_T) that I disliked Katase Shima (from an anime series) for being such a whiny crybaby was because I am one myself…. but I’m not right?! *whines* =P Haha... oh well... I guess it’s true in some cases but rubbish in others.

On a happier note, I was happily rampaging through me mum’s stuff today and found many nice bags that she kept hidden away!! There are some LV and Chanel bags but some of em looked rather auntish. Maybe I’ll use em when I’m working I guess. But there are a few small bags that look very cute! Silly mummy found it troublesome to take all of them out when I could have used some of them! =_=

I also found many nice pens and various other knick-knacks! Hehe...i managed to persuade mummy to give me a mont blanc pen. I’m such a materialistic bitch... but I really like that pen! =P


Edit: haha...i forgot bout the agreement i had with the rest of the class...here's to make up for it
alloz mr ang cher kiat!! the resident san ba of the history honours class! may u forever reign as our resident san ba! =P

Wise decision

I’m at the library now….being one of the chao muggers I’m always laughing at…while lamenting the fact that I missed today’s training….

NOT!

I was sitting at my table for a very long while this morning, trying to decide between going to school to mug or going for training... I even sms Shasha... telling her that I can’t make it for today’s training. In the end, I just lugged my bougu out and took a cab to SKC. Wahahahaha!! I’m so glad I choose to go for training instead of going to school to mug!

Today’s training was good! I haven’t felt so good in a long long time! Though at the end of the first 15 minutes I wanted to die liao. =P Though it can be considered a productive training, I realize that my stamina is lagging now. T_T oh well, it feels good! That’s all I can say bout it. I’ve been feeling so repressed and pent up recently over schoolwork... I’ve not felt so relaxed in a long while.

It’s partly due to nat that I made this wise decision... she said she’d tell me the gist of what Carr is talking about. I’ll hold you to that ya. Hehe... thanx dear!

Those Pekoponjins... =_=

It’s nice to have a friend you can complain to when you feel the need to vent. I don’t care if I was petty or childish or plain unreasonable. When I’m pissed, and complain to you, you are supposed to take my side. And I’ll do the same for you! I’m glad that I have a friend who understands that. Thanks J!

Those darn Pekoponjins... they know nothing!

Hehe... I like the word "Pekoponjin". Has a nice feel of alien superiority to it.
Kerokerokero...

Ps: Got my much belated birthday pressie today! Yay! I love it! Thanx gals for the present as well as the company... love ya all!

Ba Gua!

The ba gua I bought today was yummy! But I think I’ve eaten too much coz I feel a sore throat coming on. It’s either the ba gua or J, the germ factory... Today, we queued for about 4 hours in Chinatown for ba gua!! From 5plus in the evening to 9pm at night! We literally saw the sun go down from our little corner in Chinatown. =_=

Felt like giving up a couple of times. But I’m glad we persevered! Coz if not, we’ll have no ba gua to eat today! T_T think of how sad that would be! As we clutched our precious ba gua in our arms, everything is worth it! Wahahaha... what on earth am I doing!!!?? Queuing for ba gua when I should be reading my histo and dederian stuff!! But in spite of the heat, the aching feet and super ultra duper long queue, the 4 hours were enjoyable because of the company. J –you are the best lah. =) thanx for the MP3s as well ya!

My Friday....=)

Heh. I skipped class today because I overslept. =P Sorry Dr. Lockhart! I really like your lesson but I just couldn’t wake up in time. Hehe...

Went out with shasha to go threading today. Woah. Today’s threading was extra painful. I also don’t know why. T_T I swear my face was still smarting hours after we left little India. Then shasha accompanied me to cut my hair. Heh. Now I got a fringe, well, sort of a fringe but my face looks even rounder than before. T_T well, but I must say that I got no say in how I cut my hair. The hairdresser was super autocratic! Hahaha... I couldn’t get a word in! Oh well, it was not super disastrous I guess.

Then I met up with the movie gang at plaza sing. =) It was nice meeting up with them after so long. I got a belated birthday celebration from them. A flower, a cake and kino vouchers! Hahaha... I got so many kino vouchers this birthday. But the more the merrier I guess! Keep those vouchers coming!! Hehe...
But seriously, thanks guys. I love ya all. =)

Edit: heh. I can't forget to mention Candice! hehehe....you are officially forgiven for forgetting my birthday coz of the "beeg" present! hehehe....love ya too!~ *hugz*

“Mini-me” gone in a day…

Haha... me bro bought a toy beagle for Toby to play with yesterday. It really really looked like our silly little Tobacco. Told J bout it and J predicted that “mini-me” will be mangled in a day. Guess J’s right after all. I came home today and “mini-me” was missing his nose and the cotton filling was all falling out.

This is a tribute to the tragic “mini-me”, gone in less than 24 hours. Well, it was cute while it lasted. =_=

Here’s a picture of Toby with his “mini-me”

I'm a brat!

Heh. Celebrated my birthday with my group of pals on Tuesday. They were so sweet! I got a very nice cake with a very funny message...


Thanks guys! I would write more... but I’m afraid the memory’s rather hazy now. But I had lots of fun! Love ya all! =)

=)

I’m 23 today!! But I don’t really feel any different, coz I’m young at heart! First off, thanx ya all! For all the smses, e-mails, calls and well wishes! Especially those who made the added effort to sms/call at midnight!

Heh. J, you’re the first to sms! You’re the best! Love ya! =P I especially treasure those msgs from friends I’ve not heard from in a long long while. The fact that they remembered made me extremely happy! Yong, we have to keep in contact more often! Dawn, we got to meet up soon lah. I want my present!! Even though one of these idiots called me a “snow gal” (negative connotations added –being the shape of the snowman) -_- I still appreciate the thought. Charles, you’re an idiot! But you’re still a nice idiot! =P

How can I forget my 4207 buddies? I got a birthday song sung for me on nat’s blog, in CHINESE! Though the pronunciation’s not quite right but I appreciate the thought! Hahaha... so sweet of her! The wacky and weird smses that I got from hen and ra made me laugh. Heh. We’re going out on Tuesday to celebrate me birthday! Yippee! And guys, please ah... I don’t want roti sardine. =_=

Today was rather hectic and in the end, in spite of my best intentions, I skipped kendo. Sorry me kendo pals, but I really don’t feel up to KKRK. =P went out with J after project discussion for dinner instead. And got lots of presents!! Hehehe... all the presents showed thought and effort and I’m especially touched at the amount of consideration that went into the presents! Love em all! Especially the CD! Wahahaha.... Eminem rocks! Also went and bought meself a Johnny Depp autobiography with the kinokuniya vouchers me younger bro gave me! So happy!! Ah... he’s so beautiful! Johnny Depp I mean. =P

All in all, a satisfying day. =)

Nauseating

I just visited one of the forums I frequent and one guy there posted this link. I know I haven’t posted anything bout the tsunami disaster as of yet. But I’ve been pretty touched by the amount of compassion and empathy that has been shown since the disaster.

This is really one of the worst stories about the disaster I’ve ever heard. It’s just so disgusting. =_= It’s neither about massive destruction nor the colossal loss of human lives. It’s about compassion and aid withheld because of the narrow-mindedness of certain individuals. Thoroughly disgusting.

Sunday January 16, 5:13 PM

Villagers furious with Christian Missionaries

Samanthapettai, Jan 16 (ANI): Rage and fury has gripped this tsunami-hit tiny Hindu village in India's southern Tamil Nadu after a group of Christian missionaries allegedly refused them aid for not agreeing to follow their religion.

Samanthapettai, near the temple town of Madurai, faced near devastation on the December 26 when massive tidal waves wiped it clean of homes and lives.

Most of the 200 people here are homeless or displaced , battling to rebuild lives and locating lost family members besides facing risks of epidemic,disease and trauma.

Jubilant at seeing the relief trucks loaded with food, clothes and the much-needed medicines the villagers, many of who have not had a square meal in days, were shocked when the nuns asked them to convert before distributing biscuits and water.

Heated arguments broke out as the locals forcibly tried to stop the relief trucks from leaving. The missionaries, who rushed into their cars on seeing television reporters and the cameras refusing to comment on the incident and managed to leave the village.

Disappointed and shocked into disbelief the hapless villagers still await aid.

"Many NGOs (volunteer groups) are extending help to us but there in our village the NGO, which was till now helping us is now asking us to follow the Christian religion. We are staunch followers of Hindu religion and refused their request. And after that these people with their aid materials are leaving the village without distributing that to us," Rajni Kumar, a villager said.

The incident is an exception to concerted charity in a catastrophe that has left no one untouched.(ANI)

My baby is down...

I am sad... because my baby is down. It’s partly my fault but I can’t help but feel sad. Maybe my baby is really getting old...

*Sad* T_T

Accomplished

I just finished my historiography readings for this week! Ho ho ho... at 11.45 am on a Monday morning! But, the class’s this afternoon at 2pm so I got to rush to get ready for school now. Though I have absolutely no idea what are they talking about, nor do I get the whole point of the readings, it’s still an accomplishment! Coz I’ve not done complete readings for any module in a long long while. And this time, I’ve actually finished them before the lesson starts! =P

*feels proud of meself*

Ra’s birthday!

Went for dinner with ra, nat, hen, and yk. It was one of the bright spots in my hellish week. You guys are really one of a kind!

Though I came back from the celebration kinda broke. But we took lots of pictures and had fun. =) The cake was sooooo delicious! Yum yum... Baker’s Inn’s definitely one of my favourite places for dessert. Strawberry shortcake... *drools*

Heh. Will put up pics as soon as ra and nat sends some over. =P

Stupid

Man... for the first time in my life, I suffer the indignity of feeling like the lowest of the low. In my past school career, I’ve never once felt like this before. Honestly... the feeling is like that of an EM3 student stuck in an EM1 class. So horrid! I even entertained thoughts of dropping out of this semester and graduating early. But nay... I guess I was not serious about that.

T_T

=_=

I think I’m going through a period of identity crisis. Damn.... And here I thought I left all the angsty teenage problems behind when I left my teenage years. As it turns out, my cuz was right bout the fact that you can’t skip any part of the growing up period. They’ll catch up with you sooner or later. Recently, I seemed to be feeling all the angst that I thought I’d skipped in my teenage days.

Cravings

I want to eat ba gua!
Slightly toasted in the oven....crispy round the edges....
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh........

I want to eat ba gua......

Way to break a persistent fever!

Was very very sick since Sunday.
Fever + aching body + cough + headache =SUFFERING!!!

But I think I’ve found the way to break this persistent fever. Do suburis! Lots of suburis till you break out into a sweat! Then take a shower! By 6am this morning, my fever broke! Thank goodness! =)

Eventful

Spent New Year’s Eve with some of my kendo peeps at...... the Night Safari! Yesh. Of all places, we spent the New Year with the animals. It was mainly for the sake of our very own dear Kimchi and of course our new friend Z from Canada. But it was mainly coz I wanted to do all the tourisy stuff and they were the perfect excuse. Haha... jokin’. =P There was a discount of 30% for Singaporeans. But our dear friend Z and kimchi by default managed to get the discounts as well. Haha... according to Z, it’s mainly due to his “charming” personality. I.e. chatting up the auntie at the counter. Hehe...
It was pretty fun though. The only regret was at the lions’ den when we didn’t get to see someone pet the lions. =P

After spending bout 40 mins outside the Night Safari trying to decide where to go for makan, we finally decided to go to jalan kayu for prata. Da jie came along to join us bout an hour or 2 later, mainly to provide entertainment/ chauffeur services. But we’re grateful all the same. =P

Z is leaving for Canada in a few hours time. Though we only know him for a few weeks, but it has been a fun few weeks! I know I speak for the majority of the NUSKK (I hope. =P), Z we’ll miss you! Bon voyage and take care! =)

T_T

I don’t wanna go for training later! *rolls around in agony* I’ve been thinking up excuses... but like J said... once I closed off the escape route, the idea of training won’t seem terminally bad... just very bad... T_T

I can do this. =_=

A FUCKING WASTE OF MY TIME… PART II

Oh well...one would have thought that I’d have learnt from past mistakes. It’s not a good idea to get one whole series of books at one time simply coz of a whim. It’s stupid... no... make that FUCKING stupid! As with the Christopher Golden series, I repeated the same mistake with another series. This time round, it’s a little beyond weird. The back cover talked about politics, intrigues and fairly interesting characters. In truth, it’s about a whore who likes pain. My god! It’s porn masquerading as fantasy all over again. =_= This time round, it’s weird porn masquerading as fantasy. =_=

Ahhhhhhhhhhh........the amount of money I spent on this series is obscene! But I’ve learnt from my earlier mistake. I shall simply not attempt to torture myself with the second and third book. I shall not compound my wastage of money with wastage of time and emotional torture. =_=

ps: did I mention that the books' are in first person narration? oh god... I hate, hate, hate, HATE books using first person narration. argh...horrid to say the least. oh! robin hobb books excluded of course.

Wants

Mp3 player (ho ho ho... it’s pretty much in the pockets I think.)
LV wallet (J... I swear after all these time, it still whispers to me at night. =_=)
The Magic Ring Vol 1
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JOHNNY DEPP

I think I’m obsessed with Johnny Depp…

I used to joke around with my friends that I like old men. I really think it’s not a joke anymore man. Haha... I find myself totally obsessed with Johnny Depp recently. Heh. I liked Johnny Depp for AGES! But recently, it has morphed into obsession! =_=

I just saw the trailer of Charlie and the Chocolate Factory… heh. Johnny Depp looks soooooo nerdy! But he’s adorable all the same! =P

Lean Mean Fighting Machine.... NOT!

Haha... Here I thought the kendo camp will put me right back into shape. Well... guess not. My muscles are still aching from the brutal three days. Especially Thursday’s combined training. T_T
I'm still as soft and useless as ever. blah.

Practice what you preach

I came across this letter in the New York Times regarding the dichotomy between “pro-life” and “pro-choice”. Actually, it’s more of a grouse about the hypocrisy of the actions of the government under the banner of “pro-life”. Admittedly, this debate seems more at home in America then here. Where we don’t have much choice to begin with anyway. But I can’t help but reflect upon my own views, which had undergone a massive change throughout the years. Perhaps, I do have to factor in my bias against the current administration in America. But biases aside, I do find that my views are leaning towards “pro-choice” these days. “Pro-lifers” always gave me this bad vibe, like the “holier than thou” attitude some people have. Perhaps I’m being unfair in my assessment but that’s the impression that they projected. Besides, what’s the use of having a baby if you cannot love it? The kid will be the one to suffer in the future. I guess adoption would be a solution. But how many kids can be adopted? What about those kids with disabilities? If their parents can’t love them, can anyone expect society to? If every kid can be adopted, there wouldn’t be so many orphans and deserted kids in the streets ya?

I guess my main grouse would be that people do not practice what they preach. If you’re a “pro-lifer”, then by all means take some of these kids in when they don’t have a home, or take care of some of the disabled kids or something. =_= Instead of wasting time picketing and protesting, being a nuisance to others. I think I know myself pretty well. I’m judgmental and tend to be too self-righteous sometimes. Haha... so I might not be the right person to say this, but I really do feel that one should think about what you’d do in the same situation before criticizing and judging. It’s so easy to moralize and preach when you are not faced with the same problems.

A day of contradictions

Today started off shitty and progressively turned out ok... well, it’s a mixture of good and bad I guess.

1)Waking up sick and tired –bad
2)Committed hair suicide –very bad
3)Movie was cancelled coz timing was mixed up –bad
4)Had ice-cream with waffles –good
5)Was greedy, ordered a large waffle and can’t finish it in the end. –bad
6)Shopping with the girls –good
7)Bought a new pair of jeans to console myself bout the haircut –very good
8)Hendri laughing at my hair –bad or should I say... evil!
9)Dinner with hen, ra, nat and kitty, the silly old bunch of good friends –good
10)Kitty admitting that he wants to be a monster with tentacles (in the context of hentai anime) –well...can’t say it’s good... but it sure as well is funny lah!
11)Mummy agreeing to sponsor cost of jeans. –very very good!
12)Still sick –very very bad

Over and done with!!! Now back to kendo…

Done with school for the year. What a semester! It has been hectic, stressful, frenzied yet enjoyable. I know that I really like studying... especially after the exams. Haha... even if I file for early graduation, this will be the semester that I enjoyed the most.

Heh. It’s back to kendo for me now. Argh…not that I don’t want to go back to training...but I’m kinda dreading it lah. I’m so unfit now. T_T Thursday will be my first training in a long long while! I sure hope I’ll make it through all right. Hehe...

=_= not looking forward to kendo camp leh...

A FUCKING WASTE OF MY TIME!!

Blah. Just wasted an entire day and almost 50 bucks on a lousy fantasy series. I know I know... it’s supposed to be a FANTASY series but the premise is fucking ridiculous man! I don’t like the story, which stars Jesus as the first vampire...(Ha.Ha.Ha), I don’t like the female lead, who I think is a opinionated bitch who don’t fucking know what she’s talking about, and I think the author has a fascination with lesbian sex. It’s almost porn masquerading as fantasy. I wonder why a lot of the vampire books ended up this way. =_= Well, this series was not as bad as a certain vampire slayer series that I read quite a long while back, which was real bad lah.

But still, this series totally not worth my money and time. I only continued reading coz I can’t stand the thought of my money going to waste. In the end, I only inflicted more emotional torture on myself. Ahhhhh....... I should have studied my military history today. In the end, I only got through 5 miserly presentations. Totally not acceptable! I was initially toying with the idea of going down to SKC to support my juniors taking grading tomorrow but now I don’t think I’ll go down. Will be going to school straight to mug! Yeah! NERD POWER!

Paper in the bin…

Embarrassing moment of the day: Dr Avenell walking pass the table and shaking his finger at me for making him ‘dive’ into the bin to search for my exam script. =P but he was nice bout it la. hehe...

Found out that the “some girl” who threw her exam script in the bin was I. =_= My exam script was the one that ended up in the bin, resulting in my fellow course-mates and some other various students leaving the exam hall late coz the invigilators were all frantically counting scripts to account for the missing one. Apparently, they even called the dean. Haha...oh well, it’s nothing so serious coz they found my paper in the end.
Gomenasai! I really did not throw my paper away. I passed it to the lady invigilator who THREW it into the bin!! Ok... so I was at fault too for passing her my paper but hey, I was tired lah. =_=

Just thinking bout it gives me the chills. I could have gotten an F for the module if they can’t find my paper. =_=”” So I guess enduring the friendly ribbing from my friends of “Oh! So you are the ONE!” or more abusive ones like “You idiot lah wens!” don’t really matter that much... hehe... as long as my paper was found.

of life and bratty brothers...

And so…life does go on. Regardless of papers, proposals, book reviews, presentations, inquiries, exams and trainings or the lack of which. And despite people thinking I’m a cold unfeeling bitch. =_= (Which I’m not... to say the least. Haha...)

I’ve been feelin’ stressed and frustrated for the last couple of weeks and if I’ve been grumpy or moody, please don’t take it to heart. I’m like that to most people. And if I’ve not called or returned sms, I’m just really busy and stressed... Not coz I’m an unfeeling bitch. =_= But I’m feeling much better now. Straightened out some of my contorted thoughts and realized that life is too short to be spent agonizing about irrelevant stuff and feelings. I still don’t know much bout life in general but I do know something about my life. Good friends, good books, good animes and good food pretty much sum everything up. I am lucky in my own way. Hmmm... did I mention bratty brothers? God deliver me from my bratty brother. =_= Sometimes he’s adorable, more often than not, he’s a bigger brat than me. And that’s a feat... you people who know me can attest to that fact.

Feeling weird

What used to charm me now sort of turns me off. A person’s independence used to attract me, but now his nonchalance just turns me off. It’s amazing how the differently I feel about the same quality in different times.

Touched

Today, I rediscovered a birthday gift from a few years back. It was a CD with a flash program inside. Coz I couldn’t view it when I first got it, I just chucked it together with the rest of my CDs and promptly forgotten all about it. Today, I finally watched it. It’s two years plus late but I’m glad I finally watched it. =)

*Touched*

Yippee!!

What’s done!
2 response papers for my Japan module
1 term paper for Asian business
2 largely stressful Farrell presentations
1 Asian business group presentation
1 SEA rubbish proposal
1 SEA mid-term essay

What to do next!
1 simulation (a mock trial?)
1 battle essay
1 Asian business essay presentation
1 book review

Hmmmm... put it that way, I’m not really that free yet ya. =_=

But unimportant things aside, I can finally go back to training!! I cringe at all the trainings I’ve missed. At first, I was kinda relaxed and relatively stress-free at the thought of stopping trainings. Then... I started feeling real weird lah. It’s like an addiction. =_= Heh. The Sunday ones should be no problems from now on! Yay!! But I’m so going to die this Sunday... I have absolutely no stamina left!

so dead....

it's killing me....make it all go away.....

Stress

Feeling today is as stated above... stressed beyond belief. Shaoyun’s group’s presentation was unbelievably good. Oh man... I don’t expect anything less than fantastic from Shaoyun’s group lah. But it’s still really stressful to be the next group after his. T_T
Ahhhhhhh...... I really hope our presentation goes well next week…

History Comrades

Realized that I’ve been kinda fixated on kendo and the people in kendo for the past 3 years. Not that it’s that bad... but I’ve realized that it sort of inhibited my interaction with others. I’ve only got that few friends outside kendo. With J, kitty, hen, ichaya making up the bulk of my “outside kendo” friends. J being the closest of the lot.

Since after the fieldtrip to Malaya, I’ve gotten to know a lot of my classmates better and it’s all been good. I’ve always thought that some of them are too smart for their own good. Haha... maybe I’m just jealous. But these people turned out to be smart as well as nice! Damn it! I can’t even dislike them now since they’re so nice and funny. It’s good that I’ve gotten to know my classmates better and I guess a lot of it must be attributed to the fact that we went thru (and is still going through) termpapers/presentation hell together. =_=

Thank god for these wacky, fun, not to mention nice people… else classes will be a chore. Not that they aren’t already of course... just that they’ll be more of a chore than they are already. Heh.

Ps: looking forward to training on Sunday... though I think I’m so going to die coz I’ve got no stamina no more. T_T

the past few weeks or so...

Bogged down...

I’ve been going to school most everyday these past few weeks. Hmmm... actually just the past week or so. =P I have piles of work just waiting for me to clear but I can’t seem to finish them. Or rather, I’ll spend my time in the library staring at nothing or listening to music. T_T I’ve not been going for training much these days. Applied for a leave of absence. But frankly speaking, I miss training so much... not the stress of course. Just the training... ah... I’m looking forward to Sunday’s training! =) I just hope I can make it. But I should be able to if I work really hard on sat! hehe.

JB and New shoes!

Bought a pair of converse shoes from JB a few days ago. It’s black with red trimmings. Oooooooh. I love it! I even bought red laces to go with it! Ended up wearing red laces on one side, white on the other. Totally weird. Haha... but I like it. I totally did not plan to buy anything from JB. It’s all hendri’s fault! He went and bought a pair of red converse shoes and made me want to buy a pair too! Hehe…in the end, both raaha and nat bought a pair each. The trip to JB was totally relaxing! Made me forget bout school for 1 day. Hehe…well worth the money I guess. And despite kitty and J’s warning that JB was the crime capital, nothing really remarkable happened. Hehe... guess we were really lucky! Or we look too poor to be bothered with. =P

Some photos from operation driving charge

Nat sent me some photos today and I thought I'll post em on me blog since I dun feel like doing any real work at the moment. =P

hen and me
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nat, me and raaha
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the beach was fantastic....but the sun's too hot. T_T
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yongkai loves chips ahoy!
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taken from some random bridge at Mersing
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the gang!
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raaha, me and nat
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me and nat
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the kangkong gals
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Posing with Kangkongs
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Another view of Mersing. this time from behind the huge mersing sign we went up to. oh gosh...how tiny those houses look. T_T
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my friend took this one while we were standing on the bridge listening to Farrell giving a lecture. the view was fantastic...but the sun was HOT!
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This was taken at Mersing. we had to climb damn high up. getting up was alright....it's the getting down part that freaked me out. T_T
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Mission Accomplished!! Force 4207 is BACK!

I’m back! After a week in the “wilderness” of Malaya, I’m finally back! It has been a really fantastic trip! The trip was great and the company was even better. The whole group was fantastic but Raaha (the guniang), Hendri (handy hen), Yongkai (stiffy) and Natasha (AJ) were the perfect traveling kakis! I’m supposed to be the “midget”... but I resent that. =P We had so much fun just laughing bout nothing in the bus. Haha...

The trip was fun but tiring. The long treks down the rubber and oil palm plantations... the high and scary climbs up the high ridges... the pouring rain and the scalding sun... I thought I’d turn into a baked potato walking down the long railway road in the sun!! I think the worst of the lot would have to be the mosquitoes. The sheer amount of bug spray and sun block I put on was unbelievable! But the bugs just kept on coming! =_=
So! Two things I absolutely cannot stand on this trip would be the mosquitoes and the smell of the insect repellent! God…even now, I feel like puking when I think of that smell. I honestly don’t know which was worse…. the bugs, or the bugs’ spray. =_=

Learning bout the “driving charge” of the Japanese as we did on this trip, we really ought to admire the Japanese for their initiative and daring... their tank division was awe-inspiring! Esp Watanabe! As prof Farrell said, it’s “Tempo! Tempo! Tempo!” the Brits and the Allied soldiers couldn’t keep up and things just started falling apart. It’s amazing how a few bad decisions of the commanders on the British side made matters so much worse than it could have been. =_=

I really have the utmost respect for the Aussies! The ambush they set up at Trolak was fantastic to say the least. They were really great fighters! Esp Colonel Anderson. Charging through at least 7 roadblocks by the Japanese with heavy artillery, equipments, and wounded. Though he failed in the end to escape to friendly territory with all of his wounded and equipments, he was still an extraordinary leader/fighter. *Salute*

Frustrated

I should have been happy. I’ve just finished my term paper due today. But for some reason or the other, I can’t seem to feel happy bout it. Other than the fact that my paper is CRAP, it’s got something to do with the fact that I’ve realized the intellectual gap that exists between me and the other people in the honours year. I kinda know I’m in trouble when I don’t fucking understand what the question is asking me to write about and Hendri can easily explain the gist of it to me in a few sentences. =_=

Hendri, thanx for explaining the question to me!

early morning adventures

Warm air along the expressway at 4plus am can really put one to sleep. But I think it’s darn dangerous when one is on a bike. =_= I nearly fell asleep twice on dot’s bike last night!! So dangerous!! If I’m asleep, I may very well fall off the bike! I think I prefer the teeth-chattering cold winds than the comfy warm air currents coz at the very least I’ll be alive to feel the cold. But I’ll be smarter next time. Bring a jacket along if I’m going to be biking with dot.

Supper with J and dot was hardly exciting. But excitement is highly over-rated. Sometimes, just being with people you like is enough. Just a quiet get-together, makan some food, watch some anime, read a book... The simple pleasures in life are sometimes just so simple.

I think life shouldn't be so complicated.

Eye-opener

I’m not a person who’s big on details. But it had been an eventful and emotional trip to say the least. I experienced much and can honestly say is the better for it. I guess the saying that what doesn’t kill you only makes you stronger is really true. Going through the trip and experiencing all the happy as well as unhappy incidents only increases my desire to improve. Team B really tried their best but their best just wasn’t good enough this time round. But all this is going to change by the next tourney! We might not be in the same team in future but I’m sure each and everyone of us will be better than what we are now.

We're all going to hell....

Haha...I kinda realised that I'm not a very nice person. Was talking with J bout how one of my friends said something really cruel to another friend but was so fucking hilarious that we can't stop laughing bout it. Then we proceeded to spend the night bitching bout this or that person. I think we'll all going to hell... If it exists or whatever alternatives there are lah. Haha... but it sure was fun! And being nice is boring anyways. =P